[VERSE 1]
I don't want to waste away in these depths
I just want to take the pain and make it pretense
You say I need friends, I think I need less
I got beats and weed to ease the descent
I'm deep in this scheme as a mean to reflect
On a bleak weekend, I need to reflect
Instead of pretend like everything's fine
Speaking those type of lies, I'll never see light
So I got to come clean, but know I'm not perfect
I'm hurt and I'm searching for just how to word it
Without getting nervous you've already heard this
I'm bound to hit the head of the nail if I put the work in
Searching for closure, I feel so indifferent
There's weight on my shoulders that needs to be lifted
They say when I'm older I'll maybe feel different
But I'm getting colder, I hate to admit it
[HOOK]
Wishing that time could just slow down
Losing my mind, I might just zone out
Smoke on loud, blow a few clouds
And keep the low ground, cause my heads too loud
I'm a mess no doubt but I'll be fine
Sit tight yo, we're going for a deep dive
Cheap wine got me buzzing like a street light
Somewhere on the east side, thinking bout peace signs
You can see my struggle, and feel my pain
If you catch my drift, then I guess I'm sane
All love to the fans who respect my flame
And I don't give a damn what the rest might say
Cause I'm bout to take off, and I'll be fine
From the east side, all for the peace sign
Said I'm bout to take off and I'll be fine
In another world living that sweet life
It must be nice
[VERSE 2]
I still got things that I need to get off of my chest
It feels like I'm falling again
Or maybe it's all in my head
I wanted to rest
But thoughts are intense
The sorrow and dread
Got me feeling in debt to a hospital bed
But I'll turn the volume to ten
And keep bobbing my noggin
I honestly don't want to bottle the stress any longer
Cause that ain't so proper
Reality's somber, but why would I ponder
When I could go bonkers in concert
And conjure the monster
Residing inside of me itching to slaughter
The water looks a little murky
But not enough to put the journey on pause
I got two feet to keep me sturdy
I'll walk until I feel no worries at all
Got nowhere to be so I'm roaming
Enjoying the peace of the moment
This weed that I'm toking is hitting the spot
I mixed in some kief as I rolled it
I don't feel so beaten and broken when I speak emotion
And people who notice perceive it as golden
The love has been keeping me going
Some things ain't easy to cope with
Hold up, hold up, let me focus
I don't want to waste away in these depths
I just want to take the pain and make it pretense
You say I need friends, I think I need less
I got beats and weed to ease the descent
I'm deep in this scheme as a mean to reflect
On a bleak weekend, I need to reflect
Instead of pretend like everything's fine
Speaking those type of lies, I'll never see light
So I got to come clean, but know I'm not perfect
I'm hurt and I'm searching for just how to word it
Without getting nervous you've already heard this
I'm bound to hit the head of the nail if I put the work in
Searching for closure, I feel so indifferent
There's weight on my shoulders that needs to be lifted
They say when I'm older I'll maybe feel different
But I'm getting colder, I hate to admit it
[HOOK]
Wishing that time could just slow down
Losing my mind, I might just zone out
Smoke on loud, blow a few clouds
And keep the low ground, cause my heads too loud
I'm a mess no doubt but I'll be fine
Sit tight yo, we're going for a deep dive
Cheap wine got me buzzing like a street light
Somewhere on the east side, thinking bout peace signs
You can see my struggle, and feel my pain
If you catch my drift, then I guess I'm sane
All love to the fans who respect my flame
And I don't give a damn what the rest might say
Cause I'm bout to take off, and I'll be fine
From the east side, all for the peace sign
Said I'm bout to take off and I'll be fine
In another world living that sweet life
It must be nice
[VERSE 2]
I still got things that I need to get off of my chest
It feels like I'm falling again
Or maybe it's all in my head
I wanted to rest
But thoughts are intense
The sorrow and dread
Got me feeling in debt to a hospital bed
But I'll turn the volume to ten
And keep bobbing my noggin
I honestly don't want to bottle the stress any longer
Cause that ain't so proper
Reality's somber, but why would I ponder
When I could go bonkers in concert
And conjure the monster
Residing inside of me itching to slaughter
The water looks a little murky
But not enough to put the journey on pause
I got two feet to keep me sturdy
I'll walk until I feel no worries at all
Got nowhere to be so I'm roaming
Enjoying the peace of the moment
This weed that I'm toking is hitting the spot
I mixed in some kief as I rolled it
I don't feel so beaten and broken when I speak emotion
And people who notice perceive it as golden
The love has been keeping me going
Some things ain't easy to cope with
Hold up, hold up, let me focus
( TILLR )
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