[Lyric] No Thoughts No Prayers (Mona & Steve)

No thoughts, no prayers can change my mind

So excited, my fear could not be disguised
Wanted so hard to just be one of the guys
Held that steel for the first time, thoughts racing through my mind
Locked on my target and watched it die

My first look into the innocent’s eyes
Not knowing that this day would lead to my own demise

Yea I was eighteen when I bought my AR-15
Happy birthday
Happy, happy birthday
Yea I was eighteen when I bought my killing machine
Happy birthday
Happy, happy birthday to me

Their jokes come at my expense
No shoulder or friend to be my defense
Broken and tortured, no support to find
No thoughts, no prayers can change my mind
My parents thought I was perfect, I was loved
Little did I know what I was capable of

Yea I was eighteen when I bought my AR-15
Happy birthday
Happy, happy birthday
Yea I was eighteen when I bought my killing machine
Happy birthday
Happy, happy birthday to me

I could not comprehend or control how I would act
Pushed too far and I pushed too far back

My first look into the innocent’s eyes
Not knowing that this day would lead to my own demise

Yea I was eighteen when I bought my AR-15
Happy birthday
Happy, happy birthday
Yea I was eighteen when I bought my killing machine
Happy birthday
Happy, happy birthday to me