[Lyric] Not Real Not Here (Girlboy J)

My skin hangs like a sheet on my bones

My body lays like a coat on the floor of your home

Seen brighter days South Beach white as snow in the sun

Seen my own face only once and I didn’t feel love

I didn’t feel it



And I haven’t been real for years

I’m just going through the motions

Yeah

And I haven’t been here for years

How come none of you noticed?
Yeah



I’m sorry

This shit’s a tragedy

Something on a page that you wouldn’t read

It’s not too much for me

It’s my reality

You want it on a screen

I will watch you leave

I will watch you leave

I will sow the seeds



And I haven’t been real for years
I’m just going through the motions

Yeah

And I haven’t been here for years

How come none of you noticed?

Yeah



But I’m not even bitter and I want you to know that

Look after yourself, I’mma find my own path

It’s no one else’s job to fix my own past

But yeah I’m kind of worried I won’t get myself back



I won’t get myself back

I won’t get myself back
I won’t get myself back



And I haven’t been real for years

I’m just going through the motions

Yeah

And I haven’t been here for years

How come none of you noticed?

Yeah



The girl that you think you know

This is what her ghost is

Yeah

Maybe one day I’ll be back

But you won’t be here to know it

Yeah