[Lyric] Nothing and Everything All at Once (H.P. Mendoza)

[BILLY]
I never said I needed to be loved by you
I never said I needed to be loved
I guess I came across as needy anyway
At least needy enough
So maybe all of them just didn't need to hear
Maybe they just knew
Maybe they felt that I needed the space to be filled
That was once filled by you

Ever since the day we both relieved ourselves
Well, at least you reliеved me
I kept rеminders of the things you thought were good
The stuff I couldn't see
But with each shard of memory
I remember things too
I can't forget the searing pain
Of not having you

But maybe, maybe this time
I realize something new
Maybe I'm finding out for myself
Without being told
Maybe I know
Just what you meant to me
That's nothing and everything all at once
To my friends, I thank you all
You make me who I am
What I think, what I choose
Because of you I can
You're the ones who fill the space
You're the ones I need
You are the ones that I look for in times
Of my darkest need

But maybe, maybe this time
I can leave all, all on my own
Maybe I have a reason to finally step forth
And feel fully grown
What is it I'm hanging on to here in Colma?
I think I know
That's nothing and everything all at once

I can take whatever fits inside my car
I can start anew
I let go of all the things that hurt me so
I let go of you
I have bigger brighter things ahead of me
I see brighter days
Everything fits in my car, I'm taking it all
But Colma...