[Lyric] November 29th (J.O.B.)

[Intro]

Can't believe it's been a year now
Since you're gone
But I just l keep on living like nothings wrong
The days are moving further
And life goes on
So imma keep on pushing
And holding on

[Verse 1]

The funny thing about this
Is when I'm asked about you
I never like to say it
I never can admit it
Not sure if it's denial but
I don't want your pity
So imma just say you're doing fine and sitting pretty
I know that's not too healthy
But I knew this day would come
That's why I dissed your calls
And kept my feelings numb
We had a lot of memories
But that's when I was young
To cope with my emotions is why I wrote this song
I know you always loved me
And I always loved you too
You pushed mе out at 19
And my dad was 22
The truth about you guys is
You where childrеn too
I would have made the same mistakes if I was in your shoes
[Pre-Chorus]

Luckily my daddy was working
And made responsible decisions
While you were smoking and drinking
Which led to y'all division
I can't even blame you cause you made your bed
Now rest in it
There's no hard feelings at all cause I love you
When, always dead

[Chorus]

I really wish I understood the reasons I don't cry
I really need to understand you left without goodbye
I really wish I understood that there'll be no more calls
I really need to understand and just look down the walls
I really hope there's one day I can feel it on the coupe
I really wish for someday there's a glistening of hope

[Post-Chorus]
Or maybe many people grief at different speeds
And if I'm not crying yeah
Well that's just what I need

[Verse 2]
I really wish I knew you more
I wish I heard more stories
I can't believe you passed away so early in your forties
I feel like a part of me is missing and at the same time its not
I feel like somehow I need you
Also my dad is my rock
I mean like I got my grandma
I got my aunts and my uncle
And they all help to take care of me
So I never really struggled
They spoiled me and loved me unconditionally
So I felt guilty when I wouldn't but you were missing me
So everytime you try to see me
I'm like, "Mom I'm too busy"
And everytime you called me I was working or lazy
And you were always understanding like, "it's ok baby
I hope you're doing well and when you're free just come see me"
It's so unfortunate and sad
We never gotten the chance
Because November 29th
You took your last glance
I got the call you overdosed at 9pm after work
My sister called me up crying and I expected the worst

[Chorus]
I really wish I understood the reasons I don't cry
I really need to understand you left without goodbye
I really wish I understood that there'll be no more calls
I really need to understand and just look down the walls
I really hope there's one day I can feel it on the coupe
I really wish for someday there's a glistening of hope

[Post-Chorus]

Or maybe many people grief at different speeds
And if I'm not crying yeah
Well that's just what I need

[outro]