[Lyric] Plastic Memories (Ranen (Soundcloud))

[Verse 1]
Look, I know I'm hurting but I act just like I've been alright
I'm feeling tired but my demons keep me up at night
Scared of the future 'cause I know that it's not looking bright
You left my side and kept on running, now you're outta sight
My parents text me, say they worry 'bout my mental health
Been feeling lonely but I like it when I'm by myself
Life's a card game and I really hate what I've been dealt
I'm getting tired of this life I really need some help
Now I'm alone with all my demons
Feel like I've been dreaming
Left me for no reason
Tryna find the meaning
Hurting feeling worthess
Looking for a purpose
Pain up to the surface
Life just isn't working
Somebody tell me what the truth is
Ima go pick up a knife there's only one way how to use it
No one's cared about my life so it don't matter if I lose it
Ignoring all my problems, Ima go and make some music
But I've accepted all the pain
I like it when I'm hurting something's wrong with my brain
Need someone to help me before I really go insane
They told me it's alright, but my life will never change
[Chorus]
I feel better when I'm all alone
People hurt me, so I stay at home
I've been stuck, unaware to go
Lotta problems and they really show
Too many thoughts stuck in my mind
I've been searching but I'll never find
Lookin' for ho- lookin' for the signs
Welcome their lives are better than mine

[Verse 2]
I know I'm hurting, I'm in pain, I'm going crazy
Life isn't working, try to change but they still hate me
Tell me it's fine to keep my head up, I'm not worthless
But, I've been searching and can't find a fucking purpose
I really hope no one remembers me
Hanging 'round some people that's faker then plastic memories
Thought you were my brother, turned out that you were my enemy
Can't cope with this life so Ima drown myself in Hennessey
Yeah, Ima drown myself in Hennessey
Ima drown myself in Hennessey