[Lyric] Rose (Lucy 22)

My chest stopped hurting once my soul was gone
Can’t feel no more, there’s no hope at all
My feeble mind escapes every second I’m like a poltergeist
Ghostly of myself feeling chills deader than Jesus Christ

I smoke a couple’ cigs till my lungs can’t cough or so
I underestimate myself until I am no more
My feet keep walking till my back is fucking cracked and sore
I talk till there’s no more air and I’m all laughed upon

I write rhymes until my hands try to choke my lungs
I sing tears until my throat is numb and says no more
My mind is gone although I wear my pearls and act all strong
Thеre’s no one herе to hold my hand I’m always all alone

I dress in white so that the devil finds me all unrecognizable
I think that Satan and God made my brain as a pun
I lack feelings but so I drown my head in tv shows
I lack joy so I laugh when I see people fall
Maybe that’s why I’m all alone and won’t feel anything at all
I listen to music to escape emotions
Or do I do it to feel I don’t know there’s no notion
I attempt self love but fail with time
That’s why you know isolation will be a friend of impotions

I cry when I’m happy cause I know that it won't last for long
I numb my pain and sleep all day so another year won't come
I walk the darkest paths and kiss demons cause I dream of the day
That a car wrecks my bones and I’m buried under dirt in the ground

I always jump twice and hold my breath in case death didn’t catch me first
I walk bridges under storms cause I lack of thirst
I talk to strangers cause if a knife is in their pocket
I might die and you won’t know that I was suicidal all along
There’s peace in knowing it won’t last till long
If you thought my suicide would be obvious well you don’t know me well
If you thought I’m out of nightmares just know my thirteen year old self would have a swell
I haven’t slept since Mr. Bush was your elected crook, not a drop not even once
My brain has been through hell

I joke about death cause in reality I fear it the most
Or do I crave it I don’t know but I don’t hope for much
I suffocate my dreams so that I won’t be disappointed
I know life is just a blessing but I don’t know if I’m important

I shaved my head cause I’m not pretty I’m not gorgeous
My life ain’t perfect I’m not even close to being flawless
I’m not just pussy I’m not weak my fucking courage is endeverous
I’ve been through hell and back I suffocate and no one's ever noticed

Little goldilocks was always mad punched holes in all the walls
Had a depression as a kid not even small it was enormous
Slept in mamas bed at fifteen cause my demons they was snoring
Hearing trembles as I woke my room was pitch black like the night

So if you ever mock a girl for being pretty watch your mouth
Cause she might battle all your demons and lose hell in all her sight
Watch your mouth before you talk and watch your ears before you listen cause your mind can be Utopia and might as well be prison