[Lyric] Ruins (Brandon Dailey)

Sleep is foreign and I'm wearing out
So this is what it's like to drown
Too much has got its hold on me
I'm not what I'm supposed to be

I'm scared that I'm unlovable
Is everything material?

It feels like there's no one for me
I'm missing the point that I'm supposed to see
The things I love are boring now
I think I need to leave this town
But I don't have money or a car
"Young and lazy" will not get you far
If I could go back, I would tell myself
"Get it together before it all goes to hell"
And now nobody sticks around
Sometimes I tend to push them out
And then I regret еverything
I hate that I would give anything
To somеone who wants me to go away
I kinda don't even wanna stay
It's just that you're so close to me
I guess I'm the king of jealousy
Anyways, I should get going now
I doubt that you wanna hear about
My head and everything wrong with it
If you stay, I'd love to fill you in
It's hard for me to breathe sometimes
It's hard for me to stay alive
I know I'm not the only one
Who goes through the motions
But now it feels like I'm alone
I'm travelling a road that I don't know
I don't have a map or a GPS
No way to come back and get some rest
I think I'll be fine if I'm left alone
I'll just fade out and no one will know
If you want one more thing before I go
I'll write it all in a little note
That you'll probably just throw away
And continue on with your day
I lied when I said just "one more thing"
My list of things goes on for infinity
But I guess there comes a time to stop
And pick up on another spot
I'm signing off, I am clocking out
I kinda forgot what this was about
I'm scared that I'm unlovable
Is everything material?
I'm scared that I'm unlovable
Is everything material?
I know that I'm unlovable
'Cause I'm just gonna ruin you
I know that I'm unlovable
'Cause I'm just gonna ruin you