[Lyric] Sadboy (Sadboy Co)

Now I wanna feel something real
When I go up and down the country
Just to see your pretty face
I keep thinking bout that time
You're always on my mind
Kinda funny how I met you on
The worst year of my life

I'm not myself when you're not by my side
I'm not laughing cause I swear I'm so dead inside
It's like I've 10 moods, and they switch round and round
I've been looking for so long & I found you

But someone once told me that
You can't rise if you never fall
But it seems like I can't rise at all
I swear I'm on the edge of giving it all up
But I'm not the type of person to give up

Life's been hell so far & I don't know how to cope
With all them blows with all them lows
Maybe if I write them out
Surround them with melody
Write about this year
Now that's a comedy
Fuck now I'm just talking to myself

I see this as my legacy
I just want it to be seen
It's something more to me than
Just a couple beats
It's my therapy, it's my remedy
Just some late night memories
Yea, just some late night memories

And you know I wanna feel something real
When I go up and down the city
Hoping not to see your fucking face
I keep thinking bout that time
My homie almost caught a case

Ain't it funny how I lost you
At the worst year of my life
Thank God I popped off cause
I know that hoes mad

& I hope she thinks
Of all the good times that we've had
It's so fucking sad that she lied to everyone
I'm just not the type of person
To stay friends with snakes
Now this is the time, that I get sad
I'm a sad boy, I don't feel no joy no more
I don't even know who I was before
I keep trying but please tell me what for?