[Lyric] Salt Rust (Castele)

Streetlight above me burning holes into the evening
Illuminate my lack of sleep

Smoke rolls from my lips as I curse the very habit
Does that amount to nothing more than hypocrisy

It sure feels like it
And now I feel sick to my stomach the more I delve inwardly

I have unresolved afflictions buried deep

Sometimes I’m trapped in this dissociative state where I’m trapped in the same house
I’ve lived in for over four years now as I hopelessly watch all of my loved ones turn to leave me

I am unable to speak and every motion is slowed to infinity
At the same time my life begins and ceases to be
Yet I can almost grasp the imagery as it flows the voice of every I love you through the halls to echo
As if recorded and reproduced perfectly by every demon that’s ever wanted to hurt me

I can see them in the corners lurking
Speaking in tongues and whispering
As if I cannot read their lips to see through the spells that they are casting
Get the fuck away from me so I can think or fucking breathe
These walls are closing in on me
I don’t think I’ll get any sleep tonight for the third time this week
I feel so weak
Last night my demons told me I can’t tell anyone anything

I need to practice what I preach
Silence will be the death of me
I need to practice what I preach
For integrity
For my friends and family