[Lyric] Secrets i keep (Van Expat)

Used to love it when i saw her online
But i don't think about her anymore
Now i'm tired of existing everyday
And i am closing the door
I used to cry on the floor
Now i reside on the floor
And i'm never steppin out again
I wish that i could find a friend

Ride or die i'd rather break down and cry
Cause i don't like gettin high
Ma mamma told me be nice
And that's probably why
Nobody ever talk to me
I know i'm soft on the inside

Back to my once-a-week
All of the secrets i keep
Nobody listen to me
I want nobody to see
What goes on inside
I could end my life
But even if i tried
I could never die
I'm sorry for asking you
All those fucking questions
I hope i remember you
Cause all i'm tryna do is forgive and forget
Take these drugs that i have
Layin over my desk
I feel like a mess
I feel overdressed
I only go where
They tell me to go
I'm fucking delusional
I need to cope
I'm buggin in the stairway
I'm countin down the steps
Hopefully i'll rest