[Lyric] ¿? shimon - Kietai 消えたい English Translation (Genius English Translations)

[Intro]
I wanna disappear
I don't say that out loud
I wanna die again
But I still wanna live

[Verse 1]
A contradictory deadlock
I doubt in delusion
The present's a dreadful disaster
My head as I debate the masses
Is a display riddled with prejudice

[Verse 2]
I dunno what I even wanna do
But it's not like I'm important as a person
Want love?
Want cash?
Feel lifeless just from carrying pain
Can't see the end
Wanna run from the now
Aah I wanna disappear disappear
But I absolutely don't wanna die!
[Verse 3]
I know I'm not making sense
My just-restarted heart breaks
If there's a way to stay happy
Then I'd decide today I won't kill myself either, yeah that's right
Aah I'd pass water down my dry throat
Nightfall would eventually turn to dawn
And the reason to live I'd been searching for would show up

Those kinds of fucking words

[Verse 4]
Are a dumbass's feelings
Everyone's gonna die in the end
"All that's changing is myself", I
Know already but can't move
Cuz my life's full of excuses
If it got through and I changed
I'd be a tragic heroine
I'd feel real shitty I think
Like really

[Outro]
I wanna disappear without knowing
Wounds aren't healed
Can't see anything
But I won't resist
Don't know if it hurts
No one could understand
I still can't escape
I don't need sympathy