[Lyric] Silica (Mass Hollow)

Now a days I miss the feel of being human/
But my job is so time consuming that I'm losing footing/
I was young and blooming unassuming that my life would fall to ruins/
I shoulda knew trouble was in the backround looming protruding it's ugly face/
To turn me to a lonely masachist they say everything gets easier with many practices/
Friends say just take a stab at it but I never could could/
I'm a pasafist misunderstood so what good/
Could come from going out on a limb, when chances are slim/
And the winds cold enough to freeze my bones in my skin/
Some go all out I hold it in, thoughts smoldering my bodies a stove that I hold them in/
The ash floats away never seen again I'm trying to find a balance or a medium of sorts/
But at times it feels like drugs are the only recourse/
So of course I partake stay out late, set myself up for heartbreak wake up look in the mirror see a big mistake

[Hook]

I've lost control and direction/
The mirrors dissection of who I am is another mans reflection/
I'm guessing perception was meddling and had a hand in this deception I'm seeing from the heated sand it's pressed in/
The question is something thats already been said/
The answers whether to be or not to be dead/
Living in my head gets rough as the days go by/
If there's a god in the sky that grants wishes then I hope my/
Wish can be granted of never coming to this god forsaken planet/
Out the blue i'd up and dissapear just vanish/
And damnit I know I'm being candid but I can't manage to see the big picture or paint a smile on this fucking canvas/
I'm down to Earth but I'm afraid to go deeper and share a home with the reaper 'cuz I sold my soul for a speaker/
I'm not a hero or a leader I'm just passing through if I could sell a million records would that make me better than you