[Lyric] Sitting On Gold The Latter (Grandview)

Well I've been clenching my fists and grinding my teeth
I've been building up walls with a false sense of apathy
As if you deserved it
As if you were worth the time of day
But I am not a liar, and you're not blind
I know these words aren't much, but there is life behind each one
For the first time in a long time
And you gotta start somewhere

And you've been keeping your word and shaking your head
But you learn to forgive
And I know you never let me forget
There are lessons to be taught
From the bodies we skin ourselves from
And I know you're afraid, but I am not dead
So I won't bury myself
No, at least not yet
I'll do more than just breathe to stay alive
I'll be more than a kid who learned how to lie

And I still have all your old songs stuck in my head
And I swear to God
I'll get around to listening to you and to them again
Well I've been staring right at the sun
And if I'm blinded then at least you'll know I tried looking up
And I saw light
Yeah, we'll be alright

I've spent the last year building a maze
I've spent the last year running away
With no idea why I started in the first place
But you stopped me right in my tracks
Before I could speak you started to laugh and you said
"Well you know you remind me of myself all too much"

And I still have all your old songs
And I swear to God
I'll get around to listening to you and to them again
I'm still learning what it's like to see the colors for what they are
Not what I want from them
What I want from them