[Lyric] Solitary Mess (Jay Portal)

[Verse 1]
23 doesn't look good for me
I just hope that I survive it
Look out my window, there ain't much to see
So I just stay inside yeah
Wake up and I'm overthinking everything, so I start drinking
I'm just hoping that this liquor's gonna block it out
I don't really feel like talking
I'll just drink until I'm drunk and play guitar
And hope that one day I'll figure it out

[Pre-Chorus]
You say I didn't warn you but I did
I'll never be happy, in other words I'm just a kid
I hope you understand the way I am
It feels like no one else did
But it's too late for me, I've already become a

[Chorus]
Solitary mess
I'm all alone
I been trying my best
I wanna know why
Is it all lies living in my head
I'm just a
Solitary mess
I'm all alone
[Verse 2]
Drinking in my room until I hit the floor
Only time I leave the house is when I need some more
Hoping you could save me, but I know only I can
Battle with myself, the story of my life
Panic attacks got me running home
I know I'll be okay, but I don't
Insecurities, uncertainty got a hold
I wish that I could just let go

[Pre-Chorus]
You say I didn't warn you but I did
I'll never be happy, in other words I'm just a kid
I hope you understand the way I am
It feels like no one else did
But it's too late for me, I've already become a

[Chorus]
Solitary mess
I'm all alone
I been trying my best
I wanna know why
Is it all lies living in my head
I'm just a
Solitary mess
I'm all alone