[Lyric] Soot-locker (Call It Ego)

I’ve longed to see what it’s like to live amid the clouds
Or even what it’s like to be loved—I’m lonely
No one has to know
I might just call it quits before I face the rain
-Quitting’s all I’ve ever done
But where do I go from there?
Pick a direction and walk until my feet turn black?
‘Til my skin gets raw?
Where do I go from there?
Lie on my back in the sun until I phase away?
Would you build a shrine around the imprint in the grass?

I’ve been saving for the day
When I’m gonna’ rule the world
I’m being paid for all thе pain that you cause

I’m just another ordinary, averagе-type of person
But I’m holding on

You spent your whole life pledging your allegiance
For a chance to join the Holy Soldiers
I spent my whole life whining and crying
I abandoned the motivation that once lit the way to that same rank
Now, my time’s spent lying in the grass
I’ve been saving for the day
When I’m gonna’ rule the world
I’m being paid for all the pain that you cause

Don’t you see it?
You don’t have the restraint
What’s the point if I’m not good enough
When I’m not holding back?
I’ll never ever be the best
I’m choking on the dirt of all the times you broke me
Something tells me things won’t change
I know this
I can’t step up to the plate to swing fast
I know that my best won’t prove you all wrong
Or show you I’m not worthless after all

I’ve been saving for the day
When I’m gonna’ rule the world
I’m being paid for all the pain that you cause

I’m just another ordinary, average-type of person
But I’m holding on