[Lyric] Soul Sick (Darkmatter(AUS))

I am numb

I am soul sick

Feels like I'm stuck in my head
It's like I'm fucking possessed
Exile or resurrect this desolate carcass

Was I designed for demise?
An addict to my own torment
Feed on the disconnect

Desensitized by substance
A faded sense of moral compass
So cut me open because I've already lost everything

It's either poison or pleasure
You salt an open wound
Or fuck away the pain

I still question myself
Fearing what I'd lose
Through and through, tiе the fucking noose
Abuse mе
You fucking used me
You call this love?
Call it a paradox
Abuse me
Behind cold eyes my mind decays

I let you down like no other
Enticed by death as it pulls me closer
I think I'm ready for the underground

Still in spite of everything
I put myself through
My coping mechanisms have got the person
I tried to lose
I suffocate in my own skin
Never knowing who I really am
I still question myself fearing what I'd lose
If I had tied the noose

I still suffer

Was I designed for demise?
An addict to my own torment
Feed on the disconnect
I tried soothing sorrow with venom
From the fangs of obsession
A cold soul soaked in gasoline
I am numb
I am soul sick

Why am I cursed by chemical error?
Watch me bleed
Watch me suffer

Burn it

I plead my case, I bit my tongue
It was never enough
I let the blood run
My body gave in to the suffer club
Sick of unfamiliar faces
How the fuck can I take this?

Like splintered wood underneath the nail
Skin ticket tourniquet
Put my motherfucking body in a casket