[Lyric] SPAZZ DOES NOT EXIST (SPAZZKYD)

[Intro: SPAZZKYD & GUNMETAL]
SPAZZ
GUNMETAL, drop that shit

[Hook: SPAZZKYD]
Do I exist?
I don't know if I want to
I don't even fucking know
If I want you

Tired of lies
But do I even want truth?
Empty black eyes
Like my soul do you want proof?

Wasted time caring
And mourning the lows
The burden I'm bearing
Perfecting these flows

I just need the highs
I'll ride em til death
I tune out the cries
Only silence is left
[Verse 1: SPAZZKYD]
I take what is good
And I hurt it till rotten
Cut until blood
Until bone and forgotten

Bottle it up
Until it becomes toxin
Pour into my cup
Like the hurt is suboxone

Hurting myself
So nobody elsе can
Destroying my mind
So nobody else can

Brеaking me down
So I'm stronger outside
On the inside is hollow
My roots have all died

I'm cutting it a little close
I'm reaching out to touch my lows
I touch too long my finger froze
I cut it off so it can't grow
Smiling through all the pain
Through all the damage in my brain
I cannot make my own lane
I'm losing hope wish I could gain

[Hook: SPAZZKYD]
Do I exist?
I don't know if I want to
I don't even fucking know
If I want you

Tired of lies
But do I even want truth?
Empty black eyes
Like my soul do you want proof?

Wasted time caring
And mourning the lows
The burden I'm bearing
Perfecting these flows

I just need the highs
I'll ride em til death
I tune out the cries
Only silence is left
[Verse 2: SPAZZKYD]
Dead dreamer, red schemer
Nonsense rap screamer
Night creeper, flow dealer
Up late, no sleeper

Passed out on the floor
Eyes rolled back
I was just tryna score
Now my vision is black

Everytime I close
My fucking eyes
My body rotting
Buzzing flies

I stay up late
Afraid of my mortality
Burning with hate
I can feel it and its agony

I know you watch me when I sleep, yuh
Midnight when you like to creep, yuh
Counting hundreds like they sheep, yuh
Reaper gonna fucking reap, yuh

Thought I found a rhythm
This shit going too fucking fast
I don't wanna get attached
Cuz I don't know if we will last

I can't escape my fucking past
It keeps pulling me under, yuh
Storm inside my fucking head
The lightning after thunder, yuh

Peace found in the slumber, yuh
You don't have to think about it
Waking up to suffer, yuh
But you cannot live without it

[Hook: SPAZZKYD]
Do I exist?
I don't know if I want to
I don't even fucking know
If I want you

Tired of lies
But do I even want truth?
Empty black eyes
Like my soul do you want proof?

Wasted time caring
And mourning the lows
The burden I'm bearing
Perfecting these flows

I just need the highs
I'll ride em til death
I tune out the cries
Only silence is left

[Hook: SPAZZKYD]
Do I exist?
I don't know if I want to
I don't even fucking know
If I want you

Tired of lies
But do I even want truth?
Empty black eyes
Like my soul do you want proof?

Wasted time caring
And mourning the lows
The burden I'm bearing
Perfecting these flows

I just need the highs
I'll ride em til death
I tune out the cries
Only silence is left

[Hook: SPAZZKYD]
Do I exist?
I don't know if I want to
I don't even fucking know
If I want you

Tired of lies
But do I even want truth?
Empty black eyes
Like my soul do you want proof?

Wasted time caring
And mourning the lows
The burden I'm bearing
Perfecting these flows

I just need the highs
I'll ride em til death
I tune out the cries
Only silence is left