[Lyric] STILL ALIVE (BAAN$HEE)

[Intro]
Check it out y'all, check it out y'all
Check it out y'all, check it out y'all
Ha, that was fuckin trippy
Yeaaaaaah

[Verse]
Marijuana smoke all up in my lungs
I know my momma getting worried cause all of my songs
Involve me talking ‘bout death and suicide
Inside my mind, it ain’t been healthy since my brother died
And I’ve been on the verge of breaking through but I’m terrified
What if all my music is for nothing due a misguide?
I am losing everything I motherfucking cared for
Reality crumbling before my eyes so
Don’t come barging in begging for my fucking mercy
Especially when you did me dirty like Luke did Percy
Especially now that I’m bleeding and finally seeing
I can’t trust a bitch with no feelings, feel like I’m dating Satan (DCR)
Saw too many friends in hospital beds
I saw some dead, the shit i said I couldn’t take back
Prayers up, they stay on my head like snapbacks
My kin died, all you did was post on Snapchat
The most pain I felt was back in April
I just cried, I ain’t know what to feel
I helped this bitch, she put me on the shelf
I took pills in hope to kill myself
I’m still alive, I’m still here, I’m still queer
I still appear strong but I’m in tears
Nobody checking up on me, no fucking volunteers
I learned everything’s not what it fucking appears
I look dead in the mirror but I’m still alive
I like them honest but fuck, I’m living a lie
I’m off the meds, freed my soul, come get me
People be mad I’m living my dreams off safety
Ain’t you glad that it’s my bad I lost them?
Memories faint, I feel like a taint, I’m hazy
I got depressed, my trauma repressed, can’t phase me
Stare at the rope, I can’t see hope writing melodies
[Outro]
Yeah, yeah
You can break me but you cannot break my fuckin spirit
Capiche?
Bitch, haha
DCR