[Lyric] The Confession (Pillars of Autumn)

Here I lie
In this pool of red, awaiting my last breaths, seeking the final end
And yet, is there nothing more to be said
About the lives I have taken, the things I regret
Was there nothing more but this mere imagining I wrought
Forth upon a world lay sleeping and bare
What am I to say? That my musings were pure
Their pain for my pleasure, was it not the existence befit of a God
Did I sit too high atop the throne of ambition? Flying too close to an unforgiving sun
It placed its knife in my gut. I screamеd forth

Why

Was I not befit of your love
The bеast that lived within me now slumbers, its claws and teeth too far away to brace this clarity
I see clearly the depths of the depravity I reaped forth from the tit of innocence
Once blind but, I see clearly, your portrait in my mind

O'How the walls of this empty home scream the names of women I have saved
Not saved
Silent no longer
I was merely a pawn in God's game
He wishes me to suffer in vain as the villain of a story so cleverly plotted out for me
An artist truly worthy of the name
This painting I so painfully ripped from the pits of my soul now spill across this cold barren floor

And I bellow out, what was it all for
What was it all for