[Lyric] ​​the thought of you (Scruffpuppie)

[Verse 1]
All the time I question everything
And I feel like it's wrong
Just to pull my thoughts together
Wishing the list wasn’t so long
And you tell me that I'm selfish
And I know that it's the truth
For who would sit inside her bedroom
Wishing that I could be with you
And I tell myself I’m worthy, but I know that I am not
I will isolate myself and my skin will start to rot
And my heart will bust to pieces
They're too small to just pick up
See, our lives will flash before my eyes
And my blood will fill the cup

[Chorus]
'Cause it's so scary
Just the thought of you
And I am married
To the thought of you
[Verse 2]
See, it's 6am and I am half awake and I am lost
I've been up all night and my heart feels like it's about to pop
All the drugs I took will overwhеlm me 'till I am dust
Blowing through the wind, wishing that I could find another rush
But thе wind will die and I will wish for peace inside my mind
Need to get away from hoping all the days will turn to nights
And my thoughts will stray and I will be okay to just get high
Excuses I will tell myself until my final night

[Chorus]
’Cause it’s so scary
Just the thought of you
And I am married
To the thought of you
'Cause it’s so scary
Just the thought of you
And I am married
To the thought of you