[Lyric] Thought of Me (JOSUA (Pop/R&B))

[Verse 1]
Car rides after class driving 80
Windows down, screaming "I really hate me"
'Round town, music's loud, they can't catch me
Tonight might be the night that I end me

Momma said that she would give up if I
Sucked the devil out and rip out my eyes
But I can't seem to find something better
Would she love me even if I leave her?

[Pre-Chorus]
Everybody starts caring if I die
That's why I blow my soul to the air at night

[Chorus]
(What if I) What if I leave?
(What would change if I can) If I succeed tonight?
(Can I just) Can I just leave?
(Then you don't have to) You don't have to deal with my
(Headaches) I know I'm a burden
(If I stay) Then I would just hurt me more
(Why do they) Why do they hold me
When they don't even like the thought of me?

[Verse 2]
Was in love with a boy from the city
He's good with his hands and he's pretty
Cool guy, we used to be good friends
Now he's off somewhere f-ing his girl friends

Brown eyes, she dresses like a goddess
Kept it low but all of our friends caught us
A girl who lives a few miles away
My best friend, she's my back when I needed to say

[Pre-Chorus]
"People always leave me, what's the problem?"
She said "It's fine, Jo. You're not the problem"
So

[Chorus]
(What if I) What if I leave?
(What would change if I can) If I succeed tonight?
(Can I just) Can I just leave?
(Then you don't have to) You don't have to deal with my
(Headaches) I know I'm a burden
(If I stay) Then I would just hurt
(Why do they) Why do they hold me
When they don't even like the thought of me?

[Chorus]
(What if I) What if I leave?
(What would change if I can) If I succeed tonight?
(Can I just) Can I just leave?
(Then you don't have to) You don't have to deal with my

(Headaches) I know I'm a burden
(If I stay) Then I would just hurt
(Why do they) Why do they hold me
When they don't even like the thought of me?