I might hit Pate up and drive to St. Louis
Cut a EP make it a side bar exclusive
My passport need renewing, why I’m living like a felon
When the shit is clear as day I should be living like a legend
I can’t deny the progression, but why I need convincing
My country still sleepin, my shorty still trippin’
I’m just sippin’ waiting for this Appleton’s to kick in
Awkward off the PTSD, whats a trigger
Ayy
I don’t feel the same no more
They tryna shower me with love but I don’t feel the rain no more
So What the purpose, I don’t really deserve it
28 can’t be bragging bout my age no more
Shit is wild, I’m doing shit outta character
Clinging to opportunities I kinda find embarrassing
But shit is all I got at this point so I can’t be arrogant
That’s arrogant in itself, I’m aware of it
But look
It’s been a factor that Im far too competitive
I play checkers with my son and never let him win
I tell him it’s a lesson in it
But get so caught up in the game I start forgetting what the lesson is
Im cold with it, no gimmicks get the whole image
Y’all parade around the city I just float different
We could joke but bout the dollas shit my tone different
Y’all sound good but the souls missing
Damn
I ain’t the one to be running around pretending
Extending out high fives, perception is I’m pretentious
But truthfully, I been snaked to many times to forget and
I’m more focused on my happiness then making y’all offended
Oh
I just spotted a cluster of greys
So it’s fitting now that I’m stuck in my ways
I’m getting older, and I been told 30’s a humbling age
2 years away why it’s feeling like a couple of days
Ain’t nothin’ changed, I still rely on integrity
Too naive to see thats why everybody’s ahead of me
I ain’t playing victim, I hope that you don’t think less of me
I’m just being accountable for all the folks who check for me
A reoccurring train wreck, it’s hard for me to look back
Finally Ready for FL2, and heard crook passed
Time is of the essence, so blame me for all them push backs
John had the art in October, like yo lets cook fam
Damn
My volatility has always been my weakest trait
Gio had the labels on me I told him a need a break
Im more creative in night it’s hard to seize the day
I used want this shit, I guess people change
A social introvert, struggling with company
But a room full of peoples kinda comforting
A couple jokes is enough for me
Cause a second without my own thoughts feels a lot like a luxury
Uh that depression a bitch
I’m expected to win, but still feel pressured to quit
And even when it ain’t a cloud in the sky and the sun is shinning I’m running round with the face like I expect it to piss
Tears of a clown, that this make up ain’t equipped for
Thinkin about death when I got so much to live for
Constant second thoughts about the times I could did more
Drowning in my misery like what I gotta swim for
Just pass me that Wray and Neph cause a man that got emotions gets written off like he’s weak
So I numb it, tell y’all about it and thank god that I made it to where I’m at cause really I could still be in the streets
Im just giving you me, nothin’ I love more than truth
This self acceptance is overdue
This the project I get my closure through
For 2 years I been sayin Fuck Lotus 2
Cut a EP make it a side bar exclusive
My passport need renewing, why I’m living like a felon
When the shit is clear as day I should be living like a legend
I can’t deny the progression, but why I need convincing
My country still sleepin, my shorty still trippin’
I’m just sippin’ waiting for this Appleton’s to kick in
Awkward off the PTSD, whats a trigger
Ayy
I don’t feel the same no more
They tryna shower me with love but I don’t feel the rain no more
So What the purpose, I don’t really deserve it
28 can’t be bragging bout my age no more
Shit is wild, I’m doing shit outta character
Clinging to opportunities I kinda find embarrassing
But shit is all I got at this point so I can’t be arrogant
That’s arrogant in itself, I’m aware of it
But look
It’s been a factor that Im far too competitive
I play checkers with my son and never let him win
I tell him it’s a lesson in it
But get so caught up in the game I start forgetting what the lesson is
Im cold with it, no gimmicks get the whole image
Y’all parade around the city I just float different
We could joke but bout the dollas shit my tone different
Y’all sound good but the souls missing
Damn
I ain’t the one to be running around pretending
Extending out high fives, perception is I’m pretentious
But truthfully, I been snaked to many times to forget and
I’m more focused on my happiness then making y’all offended
Oh
I just spotted a cluster of greys
So it’s fitting now that I’m stuck in my ways
I’m getting older, and I been told 30’s a humbling age
2 years away why it’s feeling like a couple of days
Ain’t nothin’ changed, I still rely on integrity
Too naive to see thats why everybody’s ahead of me
I ain’t playing victim, I hope that you don’t think less of me
I’m just being accountable for all the folks who check for me
A reoccurring train wreck, it’s hard for me to look back
Finally Ready for FL2, and heard crook passed
Time is of the essence, so blame me for all them push backs
John had the art in October, like yo lets cook fam
Damn
My volatility has always been my weakest trait
Gio had the labels on me I told him a need a break
Im more creative in night it’s hard to seize the day
I used want this shit, I guess people change
A social introvert, struggling with company
But a room full of peoples kinda comforting
A couple jokes is enough for me
Cause a second without my own thoughts feels a lot like a luxury
Uh that depression a bitch
I’m expected to win, but still feel pressured to quit
And even when it ain’t a cloud in the sky and the sun is shinning I’m running round with the face like I expect it to piss
Tears of a clown, that this make up ain’t equipped for
Thinkin about death when I got so much to live for
Constant second thoughts about the times I could did more
Drowning in my misery like what I gotta swim for
Just pass me that Wray and Neph cause a man that got emotions gets written off like he’s weak
So I numb it, tell y’all about it and thank god that I made it to where I’m at cause really I could still be in the streets
Im just giving you me, nothin’ I love more than truth
This self acceptance is overdue
This the project I get my closure through
For 2 years I been sayin Fuck Lotus 2
( Lotus James )
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