[Lyric] Turbines (Call It Ego)

I’m a turbine for others’ business
And I’ve found it’s just rudimentary nonsense

I am machine with a human face
Unseen, demented, and scorned
You believed in me anyway
Though I removed my compass’ north
Now, I’m all out of alliances
When before was a shoulder to shoulder row
Fix my mistakes—a greater line that is!
It’s held strong for a million, trillion years
-It seems, to me

It seems, to me, that this one height I cannot reach

I told myself that I wouldn’t lose track
Threw a wish in The Well, and it bounced back
It’s just not the way I was built
-Programmed for error—recovery stilted
Wilted like the whole thing jilted
And this well’s got me red-rover filthy
I am chill—I’m an ice pack!
I was that man in the back of the field, not looking
Oh my god, I was deep in a funk
I’d wait for days for the drop
I would pray that the sun went out
If the sun went out
I’m thinking I wasn’t thinking
Oh my god, there’s salt in the wound again
Better swoon again
‘Cause I might never catch
-Doomed again
Nothing new again
But I’m cool with it
A rotating axis
When the hangman drops, will I scrape the clouds?
I doubt it
I just want my father to be proud
While I’m creating a good moment
His hands are tied behind his back
I’ve got no secrets left to tell
Keep living in that perfect world that you’ve created with your loneliness

Caught up in spilling over
With no objections to the change
‘Cause this one height I cannot reach

That’s what I told myself, and I guess I lost track
Made a fist, and I drowned in a flash flood
I got stuck in piles of silt
Took off my shoes, tread sand ‘cause I can’t pitch
Talk that talk
But I’ll plug my ears
‘Cause I don’t really care
There’s a wall in between me and you
Is he safe? Is he safe?
Is it true…?
Yo, I’m the basic hero!
When you’ the basic hero
You don’t face your fears
You embrace ‘em—stand up!
You wanna’ be a man, up!
You wanna’ be a man, up!
Every miss just sets you back to zero
But I don’t pack my gear up…
I keep on coming
Because I just wanna be here for more!
‘Cause it seems, to me
It seems, to me

I kneel down, blow a kiss to the crowd
Nobodies gathered around
All’ve come to witness my power
And that crowd, it doesn’t know it’s my crowd!
There’s barely any attention for the whole team that’s surrounding me

Caught up in spilling over
With no objections to the change
But this one height I cannot reach