[Lyric] War Of Emotions (HolmeZ)

[Verse 1]
I'm running up on the frontline
Where flames are burning at waistline
Where People tryna call me back and forth I feel like I'm stuck on a hotline
My lifes just tryna dodge landmines
That others think I really like
I don’t wanna do that makes me feel I'm on a road that's on decline
In one mind I'm getting fussed
In another convinced I'm lost
Then on a third I'm paying costs to bills that I've since long forgot
Because I'm lost I'm feeling lust
Who can I trust the most I just
Seem to be thrust aside to rust
Every time I try with such disgust

[Chorus]
You don’t know the emotions in my head
Fighting with each other, my mind is soaked with bloodshed
Your fine, your at threat, your stressed, your lying to your friends

[Verse 2]
People constantly bugging me to do all this and do all of that
Well I don’t wanna pursue that
The end of the tunnels draped in matte
Which is what ill hit when I fall flat
Yet they still hover round they're gnats
Spitting at me like animal fat
With control of my mind like an autocrat
Can never let me have my time
Gotta focus on this hill to climb
Don’t wanna go for a meal to dine
Can't be asked to pretend I feel all fine
Happiness holocaust, one sad war crime
While angers prepared for showtime
Head is clouded feel so down
These emotions really at their prime
My minds clogged with old shit, its so agitating
Take a plunger, liberate it whilst my brain recalibrating
Counting up all the 50 calibres that've been eating
Leave me empty minded, I know my calls awaiting
Then I will be celebrating with my blood all circulating
Ecstasy that has intoxicated
So I can have My Dreams My Aim
On a real this attitude don’t increase my altitude
Need to break my shell and crack I’m crude, become my own fuel

[Chorus]
You don’t know the emotions in my head
Fighting with each other, my mind is soaked with bloodshed
Your fine, your at threat, your stressed, you lying to your friends

[Verse 3]
That’s because I’m so mentally
Fucked up cos I'm packed full of jealousy
Its sucked up my credibility
Can deduct that I'm just filled up with envy
Everyone is what I'd beg to be
Don’t care what anyone's said to me
Cos everything is out of reach
I got the right to feel this jealousy
Don’t deny my mates are in better places
More cash, more traits, stable relations
Cos they’ve had the confidence
And effort to meet new faces
In the last two years 3 times been dating
Effect on me has got more breaking
Back before when I had some patience
And all that came from being lazy
Now I hate that I'm complacent
Hoping I get someone by waiting
But my last one fucking showed me
What it's like to be in a great relation
Now I've become so used to that
It's hard to get someone to love me back
And being complacent's brought me down
And I hate myself so much for that
And cos I'm used to luck
I got no damn confidence
Clearly I'm just fucked
Stuck with a lack of competence
Look I miss how we would talk
The smiles at every compliment
And well at least my mates feel good
They don't have to face no consequence
[Chorus]
You don’t know the emotions in my head
Fighting with each other, my mind is soaked with bloodshed
Your fine, your at threat, your stressed, you lying to your friends
You don’t know the emotions in my head
Fighting with each other, my mind is soaked with bloodshed
Your fine, your at threat, your stressed, you lying to your friends