[Lyric] What do you mean by here (Fleeingvenus)

Overanalyze myself
Until my palm is a mirror
Sink into my swelling self
Whatever, it's clear

If I wasn't so scared to die
Maybe I would have done it by now
If I wasn't so scared to die
I wouldn't be singing right now

Can we just stop
I mean why not
What do we gain
From dreaming

I once drove twenty miles just to see who I was
Breathing in the molding air just because
I was looking for death, but I found birth
And I swear I didn't see the light switch at first

Overanalyze myself
Until my palm is a mirror
Sink into my swelling self
Whatever, it's clear
What we've been searching for
Isn't in our hands
It isn't in our hеads
It isn't in the land
Cause we'rе looking for something
That we can never obtain
So why are we still stressing
Over the in between

There's someplace where we could go
Where we would know ourselves
There's someplace where we could sleep
Where we could feel like we don't need help
But I haven't found the address
I swear I wrote it down

Overanalyze myself
Until my palm is a mirror
Sink into my swelling self
What do you mean by "here"