[Lyric] What I Should Have Said (James iD)

[Intro]
Um
I wrote a speech about how amazing you are
And how you made me who I am today
But I don't think you'd be proud of how I'm turning out
I'm rarely happy
And if I am it's because it's temporary

[Verse]
My emotions just hide behind a façade
Because I don't want anyone knowing how much I miss you
When I'm home alone
I sit and cry and think of all the things I could have done with you
And should have done
But I was too selfish to spend more time with you
You meant everything to me
And I wish you had taken better care of yourself
Or that I should've known better

[Refrain]
I love you so much
And I always think about you
Always
I want you to know that
I want you here but I know you can't be
So just know I love you so so much
Beyond words can describe
[Verse]
So I think about all the things I have to tell you
Even just to tell you about my day
Because with every day that goes by
I'm scared that our memories will start to fade
I can't do anything at all without thinking of you
Everything I do is touched by your memory

[Verse]
I feel like nobody could ever understand how much I miss you
I often think of all the things I wish I'd said and should have said
But I never imagined you'd be gone so soon
You mean everything to me
And I wish I could hold you just one more time
Or that you'd pick up the phone just so I could hear your voice

[Refrain]
I love you so much
And I will never forget you
Never
I need you to know that
I want you here but I know you can't be
So just know I love you so so much
Beyond words can describe

[Outro]
I love you so much
And I will never forget you
Never
I need you to know that
I want you here but I know you can't be so just know I love you so so much beyond words can describe