[Lyric] When I Die (Light of Destiny)

Chorus - Fluppe
When I die, I'll just fall
I wanna rise to the skies above
When I die, my life will pause
I wanna fly just like dove
When I die, I think I'll plunge
I wanna cry, until it's mud
When I die, life will suck
I wanna fight to my last punch

Verse 1 - Light of Destiny
Emotions bottled up to the point I can't handle
Can't control myself no more, light a joint and some candles
Why don't you join as I vandalize myself with drugs and beer
And I fill my mind with lies, all these truths become unclear
Lost track of what's right and wrong
Tried so hard to keep my mind away from dying thoughts for a half a dozen years
Took my sweat, blood and tears
Dеpression just appears
Too scared, I run from fеars
I believe my time's coming near
Suicidal tendencies are perceived as natural
Life is challenging and I hate it but they say it's valuable
Listening to music is my actual antidote
Revealing anecdotes, would it be better if I left a note
Get a rope? Stand on a stool, kick it and start to choke?
Hang myself dead or until my neck is broke
Man I'm dangerous to be left alone
Pessimistic mind, declines any sign of hope
Chorus - Fluppe
When I die, I'll just fall
I wanna rise to the skies above
When I die, my life will pause
I wanna fly just like dove
When I die, I think I'll plunge
I wanna cry, until it's mud
When I die, life will suck
I wanna fight to my last punch

Verse 2 - Light of Destiny
Sick of people saying life is dope
I am not my friend Soul and I am no Pridaval
I lack a sense of confidence, insecure about writing words
So inconsistent when I write a verse
I say I am ok, but I am hurt
I could burst in tears at any moment, any second
My mind is broken and tormented
My friends watch helpless as I chose to end it
Since day one it's felt like I'm on my own
Hiding in my bedroom but I'm far from home
Try to talk about my feelings but my jaw is broke
This force unstoppable, leave me a forgotten ghost

Bridge - Fluppe
I'm constantly perceived as a disease
People don't like me, I don't like me
I'm constantly perceived as a disease
People don't like me, I don't like me
Chorus - Fluppe
When I die, I'll just fall
I wanna rise to the skies above
When I die, my life will pause
I wanna fly just like dove
When I die, I think I'll plunge
I wanna cry, until it's mud
When I die, life will suck
I wanna fight to my last punch

Verse 3 - Light of Destiny
Done feeling sorry about myself, throwing pity parties
It is getting darker, all my memories are getting foggy
Now I broke that chain of depressing rage
I remember days of when I would play
And I put all that anger back to yesterday
I just left the pain, to pick up the pace
And change what my brain would think about in the bathroom
Always in a bad mood
Always get stabbed too
Life sucked like a vacuum
Pass through people who hated on black dudes
That's truth, dealt with racists in my classroom
Laughed too, because I was the smartest in that school
Need change to replay these days
Leave pain behind, no longer see rage
Be safe, done with following my anger
Being in danger with this stranger in my brain, burning rage into my mind, see you later alligator
Chorus - Fluppe
When I die, I'll just fall
I wanna rise to the skies above
When I die, my life will pause
I wanna fly just like dove
When I die, I think I'll plunge
I wanna cry, until it's mud
When I die, life will suck
I wanna fight to my last punch