[Lyric] ‌why did you (oddyssi)

[Verse 1]
You always said to me you never ever wanted me around
I don't think I have the guts to tell you when I'm freaking out
When I leave and turn eighteen, I won't be comin' back at all
When I die before nineteen, I hope you hold regrets forever

It's not the same
It's not the same
I put my mind to paper, feel just like a fake
Am I a fake?
Am I a fake?
I've got no fuckin' idea, wish I could explain i-i—it—

[Refrain]
You always said to me
Don't— you, you
You always said to me—
W-W-Why do you keep talking?
I don't evеn want to talk to me (Oh-oh)
Why do you lie?
Why do you— why won't you tell mе?
(Say you won't) come back
To hold me down
You always said to me don't—
(Ah - ah - ah)
I'm upside down on the ceiling
I don't think I can feel it
Why do you keep insisting
I'll come back around

[Interlude]

[Verse 2]
Leave a trail of blood that's buried in the snow
Falling in oblivion like every week
Hurt myself in ways that you could never know
And I've hurt myself more times than you've hurt me

...So what do you want?
I don't think I exist, I'm just a part of your thought
And why can't anybody see me
Why can't anybody see me?

[Refrain]
You always said to me
Don't— you, you
You always said to me—
W-W-Why do you keep talking?
I don't even want to talk to me (Oh-oh)
Why do you lie?
Why do you— why won't you tell me?
(Say you won't) come back
To hold me down
You always said to me don't—
(Ah - ah - ah)
I'm upside down on the ceiling
I don't think I can feel it
Why do you keep insisting
I'll come back a—