Inside of your hands
You hold
My darkest thoughts
The keys to this lock
On the only thing holding me together
Deceptions a river
You threw me in to surrender your hold on my sanity
But agony has took its place
The life has drained away
You see decay across my face
A maggot’s fantasy
The casualty of love and hate
The atrophy inside my veins has left me dull and blank
I lay awake and stare up at ceiling tryna find a feeling
That can make me feel like life’s worth living
But I’m catching moths
What’s the cost of emptiness
I have yet to find my hope
Another sense of tiredness
Awake at night again alone
If my eyes close
I fall into my mind
The worst I could imagine swallows me, I’m intertwined
To this demon standing in the corner of my fucking room
Assume there’s no way out and give yourself to be consumed
The wounds don’t heal overnight
Walking through my thoughts inside a broken state of mind
The wounds don’t heal overnight
Staring at the shadows dropping tears to feel alive
Hollow, I haven’t felt anything
In this moment I’m a shell of everything I used to be
It’s getting harder everyday to find a place to plant my feet
I have one foot in a grave and the other in the sea
And I can’t feel a heartbeat inside my chest anymore
My skin is cold and pale, I’m powerless inside this form
And love was once a crutch to keep me up
But now I’m on the floor
Swallowing an empty promise from a time before
Cage a mind inside these lies from a fucken pill
Pain is my device to find out if I’m even real
Cuz till this day I feel as if I never did exist
And if I did then why did I end up so fucken lifeless
The knife gets pushed even further past my broken ribs to my spine
But this time, I am numb to everything you’ve tried
I have lost a life but haven’t died except for what I feel inside
Still alive, but never living, that’s my fucken life
Now, I can’t forgive and forget
You left me numb and motionless with so much damn regret
That I’ve began to question everything and doubt I ever did
Then drink myself to sleep and wake back up and live that shit again
To no end
This is my vice and I
Squeeze it tighter every time I numb the pain
But it’s driving me insane
Waking up with the same feeling every single day
How thrown away the sun and warmth
And left me with a world to face
With no color, only grey
Crawling at a morbid pace
No expression, only age
Stress, and pain across my face
And the same feeling that I’ve felt from the start
No better days have hit my heart
No better place to fall apart than here
The wounds don’t heal overnight
Walking through my thoughts inside a broken state of mind
The wounds don’t heal overnight
Staring at the shadows dropping tears to feel alive
You hold
My darkest thoughts
The keys to this lock
On the only thing holding me together
Deceptions a river
You threw me in to surrender your hold on my sanity
But agony has took its place
The life has drained away
You see decay across my face
A maggot’s fantasy
The casualty of love and hate
The atrophy inside my veins has left me dull and blank
I lay awake and stare up at ceiling tryna find a feeling
That can make me feel like life’s worth living
But I’m catching moths
What’s the cost of emptiness
I have yet to find my hope
Another sense of tiredness
Awake at night again alone
If my eyes close
I fall into my mind
The worst I could imagine swallows me, I’m intertwined
To this demon standing in the corner of my fucking room
Assume there’s no way out and give yourself to be consumed
The wounds don’t heal overnight
Walking through my thoughts inside a broken state of mind
The wounds don’t heal overnight
Staring at the shadows dropping tears to feel alive
Hollow, I haven’t felt anything
In this moment I’m a shell of everything I used to be
It’s getting harder everyday to find a place to plant my feet
I have one foot in a grave and the other in the sea
And I can’t feel a heartbeat inside my chest anymore
My skin is cold and pale, I’m powerless inside this form
And love was once a crutch to keep me up
But now I’m on the floor
Swallowing an empty promise from a time before
Cage a mind inside these lies from a fucken pill
Pain is my device to find out if I’m even real
Cuz till this day I feel as if I never did exist
And if I did then why did I end up so fucken lifeless
The knife gets pushed even further past my broken ribs to my spine
But this time, I am numb to everything you’ve tried
I have lost a life but haven’t died except for what I feel inside
Still alive, but never living, that’s my fucken life
Now, I can’t forgive and forget
You left me numb and motionless with so much damn regret
That I’ve began to question everything and doubt I ever did
Then drink myself to sleep and wake back up and live that shit again
To no end
This is my vice and I
Squeeze it tighter every time I numb the pain
But it’s driving me insane
Waking up with the same feeling every single day
How thrown away the sun and warmth
And left me with a world to face
With no color, only grey
Crawling at a morbid pace
No expression, only age
Stress, and pain across my face
And the same feeling that I’ve felt from the start
No better days have hit my heart
No better place to fall apart than here
The wounds don’t heal overnight
Walking through my thoughts inside a broken state of mind
The wounds don’t heal overnight
Staring at the shadows dropping tears to feel alive
( Vegas Bill )
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