I was alone in a small room and my only pleasure Was to listen to the wind blowing through the forest But the sound of the wind and the forest filled me with dread And ruined my pleasure I thought the wind came from the North Pole Crossing Siberia, screaming and moaning through the forest It felt alive to me, a monster beating everything in its...Learn More

I would sit on a chair for most of the day, just staring ahead I could sink in a tiny stain and be absorbed completely A tiny stain could hold my attention for three, four hours Without needing to look away from this microscopic world I felt that objects bothered me and this was very painful They didn’t do anything special They didn’t attack me...Learn More

January 1: that's when I felt it for the first time: the fear The feeling of unreality had grown And the wind had taken on a different meaning To the point that I was always very wary On windy days in the bad season At night, I didn’t sleep So I could listen to the howling and the moaning My soul cried and trembled with it I felt the wind carried a...Learn More

In the first few days, in the first few weeks I already knew I was sliding down towards an abyss of isolation Where I would be cut off from the world Where I could lose my soul And so I dreamt, I dreamt I would grasp an image and through it I would enter into my dream And there, I was free And at that moment, the world died It disappeared, leaving...Learn More

1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11 I have always liked to count Counting things around me People Number 11 was my best friend I haven’t always been I haven’t always been I haven’t always been alone I haven’t always been alone I've always been alone And I hope not in this I have, have been alone my own life And never been this alone I'm not...Learn More

Once again, I was lost in the vastness In the blinding light The smoothness of things And a tension Something was growing inside of me Desperate, (Intense) intense And the dread I see white everywhere This means I am not guilty It is proof It is a huge relief I am deeply relieved I am thankful I'm grateful I am grateful...Learn More