I feel it coming - that pounding in my head It’s like a needle - sew me up instead What would you do if I threw everything at you? Would you cry? Would I let you down like I used to? You know the mirror never lies Didn’t see them coming in the rear-view - not like I’d expect you to So grab the wheel and spin I’m barreling towards a head-on...Learn More

The walls are in motion And my mind is overbooked My stomach churning As I black out an old photo And the mirror is a liar Telling me to dig my own grave Set this room on fire Charred flesh with no name Sentimentality is slowly killing me You’re just a ghost of who I used to want to be Please, just give me a break Nothing has ended up the way I...Learn More

Would seven-year-old me be happy? Well I'm looking at you at fortytwo and all I can say is "What happened?" We're not a young adult book. We're not a travel guide. I wanted a sure thing and I got it When "It'll get better" sounds so patronizing. That quick fix of "I'm going to be something" I'll drop out of life. I'll turn off all my thoughts. I'm...Learn More

I can't remember what it felt like. Who's this staring back at me in the mirror? Your touch, the warmth is gone, all I see is reflections. We're nothing but reflections False love is fleeting, and you wouldn't guess it but it's soon forgotten Tell that to someone like me. I'll say it to my own face. But the only thing staring back at me is an empty...Learn More

I lied, things aren't better off this time Just keeps getting worse no matter how many times I try My pride keeps me from admitting I’m not fine Hold it deep in my chest and pray today I take my last breath This is me drowning in my sleep The more these days stay the same, it gets harder to forget a face This is me drowning in my sleep Drink...Learn More

Who are you? I don’t expect an answer Explaining empty rooms becomes a mouthful Standing on the edge - life is a tightrope with no end Standing on the edge - my intentions are better left unsaid Hold on to the status-quo. Dream of an empty funeral Restless at 3 am - another day filled with dread Just close your eyes - there is no right side of the...Learn More

It's catching up to me. I think it's time I put in the work. Do it for you? I'm already tired of living with myself I'm useless. I'm worthless. I don't want to hear it any more This is useless. This is worthless. I'll clear the knot in my throat I'm at the end of my rope. It's getting hard to breathe and my hands are going numb. It's on my...Learn More

I was just a kid, but now I'm thrown in this mess. I've wasted time with every breath. Reduced to lost hope, lost youth. But the date keeps turning over Every day I pray for rain. I pray these ghosts will leave me. Every day I fall asleep, I'm waiting for a change of pace. It's always "high hopes", "we're so proud". And every day is repeated I've...Learn More

I ran out of devotion Apathy got the best of me but I’m still standing Follow your bliss? Tell me, how would you like it? One day you’ll admit There’s nothing worse than being content Just drown me in sympathy Let me go - I don’t need saving I’m running on empty And I bet you know I haven’t got a clue where to go Hold up your trophy That’s all I’ll...Learn More

It's been a few weeks since I came around I’ve been trapped in conversations with a ghost of my former self I fear your body breaking down My nervousness never seems to help What am I supposed to do Without your guiding hand? If there's one thing I wanna believe It's that you’ll make peace with your Concern for me With your heart in my hands When...Learn More

You never looked my way, so I learned to take it day by day Hollow me out - fill me up with self-doubt It's so superficial, but you always get your way Sharpened glances through the rear view There is nothing I can say Formalities reach around my shoulder With a grip as cold as ice Cross my fingers and dot the eyes Fall asleep and pray I die The...Learn More

I’m stuck in the same head-space Sharpened words on demand Always ready to bring you down With that same dumb look stuck on my face I can’t help but fixate on all the small things Another layer of insecurity I try to say the right things But in the end what does it mean Jump through hoops to show you that I care We still replay the scene I’m not...Learn More