[Verse]
Freshman carrying his whole bookbag in the hallway
Dragging backpack Spanish class tardy always
Grades slipping too many classes to get started
Getting called names everyday I'm an easy target
Relationship slipping too religious than I liked
Paranoid I was the fucking anti-Christ
Sleep deprived I went into a psychosis
Hallucinating Satan's voice is what I noticed
Admitted to a mental hospital got shot with a tranquillizer
It sucked bro like a vampire with a pacifier
Was paranoid my pills were deadly poisonous
So they threw me in the padded room annoyed with this
Get called crazy by former love interest
Glad I broke up with that fucking chick then
No ones level headed in the psych ward
But she made me feel psycho more, I swore
Thought there was a scary conspiracy against me
After the psych ward, of course I'm getting heavy
Meds, lack of slept caught up like GTA police
Left me 200 pounds, I'm laying in the bed sheets
Dumped the first girl, but missed my opportunity
Second girl liked me and wanted to prove it to me
I guess I didn't make a move soon enough
Kissing in my room her hand goes to my butt
I just wanted to make out, I was afraid to date though
I remember my head spinning like a fucking tornado
Guess it's Katy Perry's the one that got away though
I'm over it, but get emotional when its on the radio
After Some cyber school and I went to Adelphi
A friend there got me into rap music
16 performed it at a church got enthusiastic
Back to Ligonier, got a PCA, I was terrified
Sweetest lady but her following me around was embarrassing
Coming back I remember how hard it was there again
My grades didn't show how I struggled mentally
I missed Adelphi easy classes definitely
But I didn't miss the time out room assigned
When you acted out and need some alone time
Color rating on how you acted in the classroom
Felt like no one there could relax dude
You couldn't high five or have any contact
If you touched someone, that's a safety contract
Green, blue, yellow, orange and red is the lowest
The rules now I understand as an adult, they helped me grow a bit
Made me responsible and take ownership
But let's fast forward back to when I was an older kid
I never played, so I quit the basketball team
So senior year, I started working on my actual dream
Started this channel as a kid, I was a bit edgier
And I sucked so I was getting hate on the regular
Meanwhile I was so stressed at school, I wanted transferred
The whole school tried to shut down my plans there
Can you understand why I was so controversial?
I wanted the world to hurt, like I was hurting bro
Finals were coming, so I was stressing out
In and out of relationships, it was depressing no doubt
In out of the psych ward so after the sixth time
I got suspended so they'd allow my case to be reassigned
I acted out in school, flipped the teacher the bird
Told the vice principal I'd flip people off till I'm transferred
He agreed, so I'm at ITES program till I graduate
Graduated with a gown and hat to walk the stage
From Ligonier too, and I was so relieved
No more hell, and Satan finally let me free
'Cause it felt my life was headed in the right direction
Got a job in September life was pretty pleasant
No more social thoughts and psych ward trips
I was looking forward to afford shit with the grip
But sadly I hate to bum you guys
But I after all the shit I summarized
It still gets worse from here, I hope you realized
That mental health follows you until we die
Freshman carrying his whole bookbag in the hallway
Dragging backpack Spanish class tardy always
Grades slipping too many classes to get started
Getting called names everyday I'm an easy target
Relationship slipping too religious than I liked
Paranoid I was the fucking anti-Christ
Sleep deprived I went into a psychosis
Hallucinating Satan's voice is what I noticed
Admitted to a mental hospital got shot with a tranquillizer
It sucked bro like a vampire with a pacifier
Was paranoid my pills were deadly poisonous
So they threw me in the padded room annoyed with this
Get called crazy by former love interest
Glad I broke up with that fucking chick then
No ones level headed in the psych ward
But she made me feel psycho more, I swore
Thought there was a scary conspiracy against me
After the psych ward, of course I'm getting heavy
Meds, lack of slept caught up like GTA police
Left me 200 pounds, I'm laying in the bed sheets
Dumped the first girl, but missed my opportunity
Second girl liked me and wanted to prove it to me
I guess I didn't make a move soon enough
Kissing in my room her hand goes to my butt
I just wanted to make out, I was afraid to date though
I remember my head spinning like a fucking tornado
Guess it's Katy Perry's the one that got away though
I'm over it, but get emotional when its on the radio
After Some cyber school and I went to Adelphi
A friend there got me into rap music
16 performed it at a church got enthusiastic
Back to Ligonier, got a PCA, I was terrified
Sweetest lady but her following me around was embarrassing
Coming back I remember how hard it was there again
My grades didn't show how I struggled mentally
I missed Adelphi easy classes definitely
But I didn't miss the time out room assigned
When you acted out and need some alone time
Color rating on how you acted in the classroom
Felt like no one there could relax dude
You couldn't high five or have any contact
If you touched someone, that's a safety contract
Green, blue, yellow, orange and red is the lowest
The rules now I understand as an adult, they helped me grow a bit
Made me responsible and take ownership
But let's fast forward back to when I was an older kid
I never played, so I quit the basketball team
So senior year, I started working on my actual dream
Started this channel as a kid, I was a bit edgier
And I sucked so I was getting hate on the regular
Meanwhile I was so stressed at school, I wanted transferred
The whole school tried to shut down my plans there
Can you understand why I was so controversial?
I wanted the world to hurt, like I was hurting bro
Finals were coming, so I was stressing out
In and out of relationships, it was depressing no doubt
In out of the psych ward so after the sixth time
I got suspended so they'd allow my case to be reassigned
I acted out in school, flipped the teacher the bird
Told the vice principal I'd flip people off till I'm transferred
He agreed, so I'm at ITES program till I graduate
Graduated with a gown and hat to walk the stage
From Ligonier too, and I was so relieved
No more hell, and Satan finally let me free
'Cause it felt my life was headed in the right direction
Got a job in September life was pretty pleasant
No more social thoughts and psych ward trips
I was looking forward to afford shit with the grip
But sadly I hate to bum you guys
But I after all the shit I summarized
It still gets worse from here, I hope you realized
That mental health follows you until we die
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