[Lyric] A Welcome Ordeal (Argwaan)

Unwanted desires
A craving for a forgotten past
I despise the weakness, sworn to chain my mind

A carefree life is so close, yet I confine myself to this delusion
Why must I hold on to that which breaks me
Why must I hold on to that which destroys my sanctuary

I hate myself for lying to you, even without words or actions
You see right through me, and yet you remain so innocent

You are my mortal deity
I shall conquer my frailty for your sake
Only I must bear the aftermath of my defeat

A welcome ordeal
This torment I must face
For it shall scar me
And you shall flourish