Pick apart me
And you'll probably find nothin'
I'm hollowed out just waitin'
You ain't comin'
It's empty here and I wish that you could see it
I could tell a great story, but no one would believe it
And my smiles, they grow old and disgustin'
You wanted freedom, but I wish we were discussin'
Instead I hope that you knew what you were doin
I had no idea how much of me you would ruin
I'm dying now, fuck I'm dead
Sometimes I can still feel you in my bed
In my head you talk
In my heart you live
How could you want it all when there's nothin' left to give
Empty
And I know that you ain't comin home
How can I fix the world if I gotta do it alone
I need you, and I know that you hate that
And every loose bobby pin I find is a flashback
To better times, but I clouded my mind with jealousy and hatred
Cuz you talk like you're doin fine
I'm phased by the days that pasted
Sick of feelin like I don't deserve what everyone has
These old walls keep cavin in
I built my life out of us together
Right now I don't know where to begin
And I don't know
What to do
Cuz everything that's inside of me keeps on running to the ghosts of you
And these ghost come and they go
My days get long, and my life moves slow
And every picture that I see kills me
And rips a heart out of chest that you use to hug frequently
Papa bears changed, cuz the honeys gone rotten
But the sweet taste can't be forgotten
I live with it and it eats at me
I keep tellin' myself that you had to be free
A better man stands and fights for what he wants
But I'm all outta fights, something I had once
Broken, and I'm chokin
Every single moment, never shoulda gave you a heart
And asked you to hold it
You're to young and I'm to old
Experience teaches me, I should know when to fold
But I'm foolish when it comes to heart matters
'Cuz my heart matters despite the disasters
I self sabotage through my writtin'
Livin' in a world that's seems to be a lot less exciting
I wish I could be the man that you need
But I'm all out of tries and my heart bleeds
These old walls keep cavin in
I built my life out of us together
Right now I don't know where to begin
And I don't know
What to do
Cuz everything that's inside of me keeps on running to the ghosts of you
And these old walls keep cavin' in
No matter how many times I try to rebuild them
And this mason feels time he's wastin
How much of a heart can God keep breakin'
I try to stay optimistic
But the sunshine reminds me of your skin
Don't wanna breathe in
I hope I suffocate and know that it works
I hope that you hear this, I hope that it hurts
Knowing you, you'll waltz through and never shed a tear
Cuz when you're built so tough, there's nothing left to fear
I hate you for makin' me weak
So I rip voices out of my chest, and I let them fuckin' speak
But they just whisper to me
Of good and great and how nice things use to be
Plane trips and ?, 30mm photos, curled up on the bed
We'd rather stay in and make a frozen pizza and watch a movie while I kiss your skin
These old walls keep cavin in
I built my life out of us together
Right now I don't know where to begin
And I don't know
What to do
Cuz everything that's inside of me keeps on running to the ghosts of you
And you'll probably find nothin'
I'm hollowed out just waitin'
You ain't comin'
It's empty here and I wish that you could see it
I could tell a great story, but no one would believe it
And my smiles, they grow old and disgustin'
You wanted freedom, but I wish we were discussin'
Instead I hope that you knew what you were doin
I had no idea how much of me you would ruin
I'm dying now, fuck I'm dead
Sometimes I can still feel you in my bed
In my head you talk
In my heart you live
How could you want it all when there's nothin' left to give
Empty
And I know that you ain't comin home
How can I fix the world if I gotta do it alone
I need you, and I know that you hate that
And every loose bobby pin I find is a flashback
To better times, but I clouded my mind with jealousy and hatred
Cuz you talk like you're doin fine
I'm phased by the days that pasted
Sick of feelin like I don't deserve what everyone has
These old walls keep cavin in
I built my life out of us together
Right now I don't know where to begin
And I don't know
What to do
Cuz everything that's inside of me keeps on running to the ghosts of you
And these ghost come and they go
My days get long, and my life moves slow
And every picture that I see kills me
And rips a heart out of chest that you use to hug frequently
Papa bears changed, cuz the honeys gone rotten
But the sweet taste can't be forgotten
I live with it and it eats at me
I keep tellin' myself that you had to be free
A better man stands and fights for what he wants
But I'm all outta fights, something I had once
Broken, and I'm chokin
Every single moment, never shoulda gave you a heart
And asked you to hold it
You're to young and I'm to old
Experience teaches me, I should know when to fold
But I'm foolish when it comes to heart matters
'Cuz my heart matters despite the disasters
I self sabotage through my writtin'
Livin' in a world that's seems to be a lot less exciting
I wish I could be the man that you need
But I'm all out of tries and my heart bleeds
These old walls keep cavin in
I built my life out of us together
Right now I don't know where to begin
And I don't know
What to do
Cuz everything that's inside of me keeps on running to the ghosts of you
And these old walls keep cavin' in
No matter how many times I try to rebuild them
And this mason feels time he's wastin
How much of a heart can God keep breakin'
I try to stay optimistic
But the sunshine reminds me of your skin
Don't wanna breathe in
I hope I suffocate and know that it works
I hope that you hear this, I hope that it hurts
Knowing you, you'll waltz through and never shed a tear
Cuz when you're built so tough, there's nothing left to fear
I hate you for makin' me weak
So I rip voices out of my chest, and I let them fuckin' speak
But they just whisper to me
Of good and great and how nice things use to be
Plane trips and ?, 30mm photos, curled up on the bed
We'd rather stay in and make a frozen pizza and watch a movie while I kiss your skin
These old walls keep cavin in
I built my life out of us together
Right now I don't know where to begin
And I don't know
What to do
Cuz everything that's inside of me keeps on running to the ghosts of you
( Jivin Scientists )
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