[Lyric] But Thats The Whole Fucking Problem (Blood Girl)

Guess who broke their streak after 9 pathetic weeks
Guess im not as ok as i thought that i could be
I didn’t choose this life but it chose me
So tell me why is it my responsibility?

I still do things im not allowed to do
Like hit myself or take it out on you
I still cut my thighs now and then and forget to take my medicine
Lately i can’t convince myself that i am good deep down

Nothing surprises me anymore in my behaviour as a monster
Nothing hurts me like the way that i hurt you
And if i killed myself would i hurt you more
Or would you rather i was here this fucked up
Always mеssing up you
Always messing up me too

I didn't want this i hope you know that i did not
Do you know that i am saddеr right now
Than i ever ever thought that i would be
Who knew me before this shit or has it always been like this
Either way i cut myself today and i fucked up
Cause i like you but thats the whole fucking problem
Cause i dont know how to treat people i love so
I dont want to keep on loving you
Cause its hurting me and also hurting you too
Cause i can feel you slipping away
I can feel you slipping away
Whys it like this?
It is hurting me which is hurting you
Which is what i what i always do
Always fucking up somehow
I just wish that loving was not so fucking tough
But nothing is and thats why its unfair
Cause i love you so so so much

I am sorry that i love you
I am, i am
I am sorry that i can’t make you understand
You can’t read my mind and i can’t read yours
Which should be alright but its hard of course
Nothing ever is easy with me
But im sorry either way