I got a gay little brain and a gay little heart I got a shitty guitar where i play songs, call it art I am dumb in my brain i was dropped as a child Not by my parents but by the gods I see a girl on the bus wearing dragon ball socks And i look like an asshole as i fall in love Maybe 5 minutes pass before its her stop And she smiles at me...Learn More

I am not alright To the point where i Should just stay at home and not go to school Cus everytime i speak I float from my body And i look down thinking: shut the fuck up dude! Like everything i say is so fucking stupid And everytime i speak im completely useless I feel embarrassed by my stupid brain and i just wanna cry I feel embarrassed by my...Learn More

I haven’t done my best but ill do it now All these years i was too busy fighting for my life Now i feel like i am allowed to sleep I can crawl into my bed and melt into my sheets If im too paralysed to get up after all I will stay in bed and scrapbook not just lie and sulk I will continue on I will not hurt myself I will stay alive i’ll make the...Learn More

Whatever i draw Whatever i do Whatever songs i listen to Im thinking of pain Im thinking of death It feels like a glue It sticks to my head Im seeing a corpse when im out for a smoke It looks like my face just beaten and broke I look to the sky ask: is this a joke? If it is its not that good Im not in the mood for answering texts Im not in the...Learn More

The thing is Anxiety hurts Can't breathe properly or go outside Act human enough to feel alright When i want to And it kills me That reality is a question mark My brain is god and i am man Desperate for a fucking answer And i need it And i need it And i need it And i do it sloppily By it i mean living Spend so much time worrying I never do...Learn More

Dont want bandaids or the pills Just an all-inclusive cure Something i can eat for breakfast That will make me always sure Not doubting everything About everyone About something dumb that i should've done Maybe thinking less is the cure i want But its always all that i have become Thinking, always thinking Wished for a switch-off button to my...Learn More

Real life is a tiny bug and it sucks blood from my leg I let it suck, suck my illness out Cus it all sucks and maybe i should just give in and go to bed A thousand eyes are staring at me thru the darkness of my room All my furbies, stuffed animals looking at me like a loon I get defensive say im normal but i know that its a lie When living...Learn More

And even if i am depressive can i still live a life? If a depressive personality is just chronic demise? If im talking to a doctor i always feel like i should lie If i can’t get well i might as well be the sickest one alive Can i love you even though im clearly mental? Even tho you’re probably definitely better off alone ? If you love me can u...Learn More

Saying that im fine made me realise that i wasn’t Made me realise that i haven’t been for long So i've chosen to keep playing In a game that i can’t win in Like im just support for others Or a creature pretending But i wish i knew how other people felt How it would be to be well Like i can’t pretend that i am good If im not its like it should be...Learn More

Guess who broke their streak after 9 pathetic weeks Guess im not as ok as i thought that i could be I didn’t choose this life but it chose me So tell me why is it my responsibility? I still do things im not allowed to do Like hit myself or take it out on you I still cut my thighs now and then and forget to take my medicine Lately i can’t convince...Learn More

I’ll tattoo across my chest That im unlovable to prove it And force the pills down my throat So i can kiss someone without puking Im sick of being sick but sick is sick of wanting out My body should be a body but instead its walking ground But just strap your boots on and walk all over me Ive gotten kinda used to that whole dynamic I'll tie your...Learn More

Obsessive compulsions until my body aches I got compulsive obsessions thats rotting at my brain And my whole body convulses in overwhelming pain Its like demonic posession that never goes away Brain is a nightmare im tryna listen in There is a tv on somewhere but i can't find the switch I know the works in my hands but i can't feel them...Learn More