[Lyric] Childlock (Project_pears)

"Oh how I wish I was young, to feel alive again"
Had innocent purity, I knew I was me
Could keep my fascination with all these simple things
To not be kept up with the straight brevity of life
I used to summon wild dreams of being something more
Creative visions I saw will never be the same
This pumping heart inside me will never be okay
Slow aging of the brain has distorted all my mind
My favorite memories don't represent the time

Blotting out these momеnts hiding in my head
And all these timеs I questioned what happens when we're dead
Was quickly taught that my own opinions didn't matter
Traumatic injury I suffered made me blind
Ignore all my breakdowns
Verbal agony I took to make it
Constant threats against my life
All because of their envy

"Suck up all your tears, you're too old to cry"
You say this but you beg for me to have emotion
No longer let your piercing screams bother me
They drowned my innocence to kill me forever
Scared into a faith because I didn't know better
Thought that conforming to it would save me from God
Though this lengthy life we live is quite depressing
Your mental state will go on to determine time
Blotting out these moments hiding in my head
And all these times I questioned what happens when we're dead
Was quickly taught that my own opinions didn't matter
Traumatic injury I suffered made me blind
The past was never quite what we made it
But our mindset that we have can make it fine
Cleaning the mental state will make everything better
My consciousness is what kept me alive