[Lyric] Cynical (Sandra Meland)

I never asked to be alive
And now I'm selfish if I leave
Whenever I say I'd rather die
They say "well, don't you think of me"

I'm expected to live and be happy
I'm expected to work and make money
In a capitalist society
In an unfulfilling reality

Each heartbreak's taught me nobody wants me
And my two first boyfriends taught me I'm just a body
I know I'm cynical, it's all I'm prepared for
It's all I'm prepared for

I never asked for this body
So I make it my own with my tattoos
When it distorts your view of normality
You claim it's a form of self abuse

Should I be happy for me or for you
What labels me crazy if I do
If you think I'm crazy, then you made me crazy
My childhood taught me I'm a nobody
And my two first boyfriends taught me I'm just a body
I know I'm cynical, it's all I'm prepared for
It's all I'm prepared for

And when I couldn't take it any longer
My last therapist left me for dead
It's all I'm prepared for, it's all I'm prepared for
All I'm prepared for, all I'm prepared for

My therapist left me for dead
When I told him I had nothing left to live for
I know I'm cynical
But it's all I'm prepared for
All I'm prepared for
All I'm prepared for (hah)