[Lyric] David Foster Wallace understood it all (4JM4)

Yeah, did I get the right shit?
(Did I get the right shit?)
Shouldn’t feel like this
(Shouldn’t feel like this)
Shouldn’t I be happy?

Used to be constantly drinking and laughing
Used to be always just ready to hang
Excited for all that I had in my lane
Now all I see is that things ain’t that same
So now I just constantly question the game, yeah

(What am I doing?)
What am I doing?
(What am I aiming for?)
What am I aiming for?
(Made a lot of money, yeah)
Made a lot of money, yeah
(What do I make it for?)
What do I make it for?
(Fuck, fuck)
Always trying to find God, but
Always feel evil more (always feel evil more)
Same old cycle (same old cycle)
Always thinking about the liquor store (always thinking about the liquor store)

Anybody think like me?
(Racing thoughts)
Sink like me
(Pray to God)
Drink like me
(Then get sober)
Still not pleased
(Still feel shitty)
Meds and things
(Pop those pills, Chris)
Then let’s see
(Let’s try new ones)
Therapy
(Maybe you should try our outpatient programs)
Outpatient programs and more fam
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)

So low, man
“Just try this dope, man”
Oh damn
“You should talk to this man”
More sessions and more confessions
“Let’s be honest, you’ve got blessings”
Fuck, I do not know what to trust
My head just says, “Give it up”
When is enough?
Maybe I was better just drunk?
I do not see any sun, none (I do not see any sun)
Slow it down
Mind going too fast, don’t I know it now?
Memories from the past, all over now
Hear ‘Walking on a Dream’ and I break down
Need a way out (way out)
If I could only (only)
Shut it all off, chill with the homies (chill with the homies)
Head to a party (head to a party)
Talk to a hot chick, still feel lonely (still feel lonely)
She do not know me (she do not know me)
She just likes the image that I give off (image that I give off)
I could try to find a, (I could try to find a) wife
But the ones that I like always skip off
Get pissed off, then I lift off
Get so high I don’t really need love (I don't really need love)
Tell myself, “I don’t really need nothing”
But my head says, “Give me something”

Give me something
Just give me something
Yeah, my head says, “Give me something”
Give me something
Just give me something

(Yeah)
(Yeah, yeah, yeah)
Give me it, send me it now
Write the script, light the spliff, give me the loud
Please give me something just so I can slow my consciousness
‘Cause all it does is bring me down, speeding out
Want to bow out
But I found that I now doubt everything
And that includes the sounds, how
They get in my head, I do not know
But I let it all go
Put that shit in the Soundcloud
Smoke it down
Break me out
Head’s a mess
See it now
See it all now all so clearly (so clearly)
Why I push away the ones who are near me (ones who are near me)
I don’t want them to see the real me (real me)
The dude crying on the floor, “God, hear me” ("God, hear me")
Even my fam like, “Chris, you scare me” ("Scare me")
All I need’s a pen and an earpiece (earpiece)
I know I’m not the only one (know I'm not the only one)
The only one feeling this sadness (feeling this sadness)
I think it’s a modern thing (think it's a modern thing)
And I don’t think it just passes
Any way you try to mask it
Instagram, drugs, and fashion (drugs and fashion)
All this shit got me asking (got me asking)
What’s the point? Where’s my passion?

Mom says, “You should pray”
Do like every day
“God, take away the pain”
Does Jesus know my name?
I hope I see a change
Maybe another day
Maybe another day
Maybe this Earth will fade