[Lyric] ​decline (Capstan)

[Verse 1]
My self-depravity
A stark duality
Stare into the black (Black, black)
Depressive reality
A masochist who can't feel a thing
The paradox is suffocating me

[Chorus]
Well, it gets better, but it feels like it's worse
Because I'm tethered to the past, it's a curse
I know it's better, but I think it gets worse
Until they put me in the dirt

[Bridge 1]
'Cause every day that I should wake up grateful
I'm pulled back into a negative space
Still fear I'm not enough
Failure stitchеd in my seams
It's all fiction
Horrific depiction
Violent condition
[Chorus]
Wеll, it gets better, but it feels like it's worse
Because I'm tethered to the past, it's a curse
I know it's better, but I think it gets worse
Until they put me in the dirt
Or can I ever overcome it and learn?
Do I endeavor to retain all my hurt?
I know it's better, but I think it gets worse
Until they put me in the dirt

[Bridge 2]
I can't live up to what you want from me
I'm not enough, failure stitched in my seams

[Chorus]
Well, it gets better, but it feels like it's worse
Because I'm tethered to the past, it's a curse
I know it's better, but I think it gets worse
Until they put me in the dirt
Well, it gets better, but it feels like it's worse
Because I'm tethered to the past, it's a curse
I know it's better, but I think it gets worse
Until they put me in the dirt
Or can I ever overcome it and learn?
Do I endeavor to retain all my hurt?
I know it's better, but I think it gets worse
Until they put me in the dirt