[Lyric] Fester (Pity Party (CA))

[Verse 1]
I don’t want the things I don’t say
To keep getting in the way
But I can’t stop keeping my mouth shut
Everything pours straight from my gut

[Chorus]
It doesn’t matter anyway
Nothing that I could say
To make this hurt go away
So I’d rather sit in pain
Fester the sadness that I’m in
Up until I wear too thin
Finally let you in
Oh, I want to let you in

[Verse 2]
I’d rather keep it to myself
Brush it off, help it find a shelf
Cause all these memories
Can’t be the death of me
[Verse 3]
I don’t like drinking to forget
But I don’t like the pain I’m in
And if it hurts worse every day
Can we ever feel ok?

[Chorus]
It doesn’t matter anyway
Nothing that I could say
To make this hurt go away
So I’d rather sit in pain
Fester the sadness that I’m in
Up until I wear too thin
Finally let you in
Oh, I want to let you in

[Bridge]
This is where the fear begins
I’m always scared in my own skin
I’m never telling anyone
The way I felt when you were done

[Refrain]
I don’t want the things I don’t say
To keep getting in the way
But I can’t stop keeping my mouth shut
Everything pours straight from my gut
[Chorus]
It doesn’t matter anyway
Nothing that I could say
To make this hurt go away
So I’d rather sit in pain
Fester the sadness that I’m in
Up until I wear too thin
Finally let you in
Oh, I want to let you in