[Lyric] First Kiss (Elizabeth Chada)

[Verse]
I was 7 years old
He was 65
Sitting by a fire
He looked in my eyes
He never said a word
He just pulled me close
In a moment he was done

He had no idea
That I died that night
He killed something sweet
Left me broken inside
This was my defeat
But my question is why
Oh why
Did he do this?

[Refrain]
Will I ever be the same?
Will I ever be whole again?
[Verse]
Year after year
And boy after boy
For so many years
I felt like a toy
Used and abused then left alone
Hoped someone would help me?

Got so confused
By what love should be
Longed for affection
Yet left empty
Giving myself
Trying to people please
But what I always needed
Was someone to love me
But now

[Refrain]
I'll never be the same
And yet
I want to be whole again
I'm trying so hard to believe
God how could You let this be...

[Bridge]
You put the stars in their place
Held back the sea with Your hands
You sent Your Son to die
But didn't stop one man
Been angry for so long
Will You please right this wrong
God please tell me
[Verse]
Can you Give me back
What was stolen from me
My hearts crying out
God I want to be free
From the pain of the past
I want dignity
Oh God do you see
There is no quick fix
Cause there's so much pain
Died a thousand time
Even felt insane
Carried secrets and lies
I'm so tired of this
I am ready to get over my first kiss
God will you help me to get over my first kiss

Redeem Lord
Restore Lord
And heal Lord
And give my first kiss back to me