[Lyric] Five Months (Tarnish - CA)

Maybe I'm not who I used to be
I'm complacent, okay with a life at ease
When I left I was a nervous wreck but now I just survey the ceiling

Five Months at home alone with not a lot to show (not a lot to show)
I can't find hope unless I'm dreaming
I can see my friends but not their face, bailing on plans again, stay out my six foot space
I just can't accept that there's nothing left and nobody's close to keep me in check

I miss the sight of healthy public life, I'm fucking sick of everyone ignoring all the signs
Do you ever think that there's a reason that you wouldn't try?
It blurs my mind and now I can not sleep for shit at night

I can see my friends but not their face, bailing on plans again, stay out my six foot space
I just can't accept that there's nothing left and nobody's close to keep me in check

Do you ever think that there's a reason that you wouldn't try?
It blurs my mind and now I can not sleep for shit at night
It blurs my minds and now I can not sleep for shit at night