[Lyric] H0P3 101 (spacewalkjones)

Time after time
It's almost 12, I feel so weak when you're not inside
But who's not drunk off something almost every night?
Tell me I should grow some skin
'Cause it's still just in my head

Childlike hope felt clean for a bit
That credit card maxed off jeans and therapy
Love songs where you call your girlfriend a bitch
Took an edible so I can fall asleep
Now I'm panicking
Watch Dogs drip, whole room glowing pink
All the walls got souls, car keys in a fist (woo!)
Lately I've been feeling like we're living in a sim
Got a manic god pulling on my strings
Tryna bury me

I wanna know how it feels when you sink back
Is it the same that I feel when I'm drinking?
I've got a camera full of photos I regret and a couple that remind me I'm the shit
Fuck it, now it's full time
Imma get you mad at the kid
Old school blogs getting smacked in this bitch
I'm 22 shouldn't act like I did
Maybe should've gone to school and just dipped
Leave too much for me to imagine
Retail jobs, smoke break, doing backflips
How'd I miss a whole year to the magic?
Never look back, never look back, never look
Wish that I could help you to end this
I need help upholding a friendship
Throw my Android into a blender
I just wanna stay in your bed for a fuckin' year

(It's still just in my head)

Childlike hope felt clean for a bit
That credit card maxed off jeans and therapy
Love songs where you call your girlfriend a bitch
Took an edible so I can fall asleep
Now I'm panicking
Watch Dogs drip, whole room glowing pink
All the walls got souls, car keys in a fist (woo!)
Lately I've been feeling like we're living in a sim
Got a manic god pulling on my strings tryna bury me