[Lyric] I Recorded This in a Van at 4pm (Handsome Failure)

I put myself through MKULTRA
In my free time
And all that it did was open up my mind
I learned that they weren't kiddin'
And what they said was true
Cause DMT made life see through
Never thought that I would do
The things that I've done
But here we are darlin'

If we're all puzzle pieces
That make up a god
Then a part of God has died today
And if we're all fractals in his kaleidoscope
Then I'm certain that God cannot see

Now it has been a year since
I've held you to me
And evеn longer since our lips
Have touchеd
Now I know Darlin'
Through my journey
There's no such thing as unending love
Cause you're one sided but
Without you I wouldn't have known
That there's more to life
Than feelin' empty and cold
Cause God came to me
As a centipede of light
And told me it's in my own hands
To change my life
And now
If we're all puzzle pieces
That make up a god
Then a part of God has died today
If we're all fractals in his kaleidoscope
Then I'm certain that God cannot see

They used to say that eight hits of acid
Made a man insane
So if my sanity's gone
Well I hope I never see it again
And if magic mushrooms
Are meant to get you closer to nature
Then I'm already a part of it

Cause I walked up four hills
High on peyote
And when I reached the top
God he spoke to me
He said:
"Son if you want fixed, let go of what ails you"
And so I finally did
And I let go of you
Now I don't see your ghost no more
When I'm tryin' to sleep
And your thought never crosses my mind
Like it used to be
And If we're all puzzle pieces
That make up a god
Then a part of God has died today
And if we're all fractals in his kaleidoscope
Then I'm certain that God cannot see
I'm certain that God cannot see