[Lyric] Look Alive (Kali (DNK))

(Verse 1)
I take a look at my, future and all I see
Is shattered thoughts of everything that I want to be
I'm dead inside, but I just look alive
Man I'm done with everything, I don't want me in my life
Man I'm just being honest, I'm no longer the same
Cuz I'm tired of people telling me that I am insane
They're blaming me for their mistakes, but should I take the blame?
Wish I could have a gun, & shoot myself in the brain!
I'm falling apart, my heart is fukin frozen
Frustrated & hated, feels like I'm drowning in an ocean
I need a helping hand, to keep me up & floating
But I don't care anymore, I no longer have emotions
I'm dying & crying inside but I don't let it show
I keep on looking alive so nobody else could know
Just like a body, without a soul
& I'mma be like that until the day I'm gone

(Chorus)
Stop the press, everything's a mess
You can look alive, but you are not at rest
And i-ideas are flowing through your head
A million miles an hour while lying in your bed
A lucid life you never thought you'd lead
Working everyday
Are you working just to bleed?
I know (X5)
(Verse 2)
Is it my time to go? when will I rest in peace?
When will I get the chance to say bye to my enemies?
Cuz everything I see, is not what it used to be
And everyone changes just the weather even me
Feels like I'm going blind, my vision's getting shaded
I'm jaded, so sick of being so manipulated
My closest friends turned their back on me said I'm getting cocky
So leave me if your fukin life is better off without me
& I say it proudly, I don't need nobody
I'll just keep on walking this path alone, no one's around me
I'm better off alone, I don't need your sympathy
I've been through all these ups & downs but you won't get the best of me
I'm dying & crying inside but I don't let it show
I keep on looking alive so nobody else could know
My smile just hides the fuckin pain I'm feeling every single night
So the next time you see me smiling just know that I'm dying inside

(Chorus)