[Lyric] My Grassy Knoll (IFloss)

Some times i sit at home and wonder is it all worth it
Was I a mistake, and what happened at my birth kid
Do you ever wonder these things, am I wrong
For believing my mother don't love me cuz i'm strong
And my dad was never there ever holding my hand
I never had a shoulder to run to no best friend
Does my brother feel the same way or does he really hate me
Cuz I'm the youngest son quote unquote i'm the baby
They hold me back these emotions kept dormant
That's why i rap to live I gotta be my rap's foremen
I'm stuck now, have I really found love
Or what I'm feeling's intense lust add the pure dove
Instrumentals in my ears punching keys ontop of keys
To try to work towards a future gotta blossom, i'm a tree
Do my tears fall cuz I feel I'm soo wrong
In thinking everything could be solved if I stay strong

I'm soo alone, always been misunderstood
Never got any attention, like a soldier i stood
Head held high, tears held back
Now i got more to tell I deliver through my raps
Remember don't fall, just stay super strong
I swear I'll let you kill me if I ever steer you wrong
You could kill me if i'm wrong, kill me if i'm wrong
The weak die first, remember stay strong

I stay strong, but does my dad really love me
Look him in the eye, said he wants the best for me
My mother's steady crying like i'm snorting white lines
Marijuana never hurt no body, i'm done trying
My brother's in another country, tryna stay strong
I made his ass mellow when i told him he was wrong
Fascades always crumble thunder always rumble
And tears tend to fall when you let your gaurd fumble
I'm in a jungle tryna build a city
Writing rhymes to make em think, never copying diddy
Will they ever feel me or will my buzz stay bald
Pay attention when in school breeze needs to be a squall
Forever stand tall stand out amongst the giants
Gambling with Zeus Poseidon while petting my lion
Babies crying, my mind is focused on soothing
The pain we share while i make sure we're never losing

I'm soo alone, always been misunderstood
Never got any attention, like a soldier i stood
Head held high, tears held back
Now i got more to tell I deliver through my raps
Remember don't fall, just stay super strong
I swear I'll let you kill me if I ever steer you wrong
You could kill me if i'm wrong, kill me if i'm wrong
The weak die first, remember stay strong

No matter how many days, weeks, months or years
I'm focused on success, happiness I stay clear
Of everything that tries to slow me down i'll drown it in a second
Fluent with what i say, can't forget to count my blessings
My life is clearly flawed makes me hate what i'm missing
Nothing could seem to fill me up besides what i'm pissing
The liquor in my system or the ganja in my veins
Makes the problems in my brain go away i feel sane
For a couple hours, but then i'm forced to go home
Parents trying to keep me locked up i wanna be alone
Lights off i'm in the zone wishing things just changed
But one thing i've learned is don't sit around and wait
Opportunities will pass, friends yell kiss my ass
Cuz when you up they all around but when you fall they'll watch you drown
Searching for a crown while i wonder if it fits
And if it don't then fxck it just fall in love with this

I'm soo alone, always been misunderstood
Never got any attention, like a soldier i stood
Head held high, tears held back
Now i got more to tell I deliver through my raps
Remember don't fall, just stay super strong
I swear I'll let you kill me if I ever steer you wrong
You could kill me if i'm wrong, kill me if i'm wrong
The weak die first, remember stay strong

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