[Lyric] Shotgun Root Canal (Handsome Failure)

Hello mom I'm sorry
I'm not the man that you wanted me to be
And I'm glad that dad ran away from me
I'm nothin' for either of you to be proud of

I got problems that I can't fix and my
Fuckin' presence would make you sick I know I
Deal with that every time I look in the mirror

But I learned the secret, I found the key
To avoid this suicidal nihilism in me
It's called just apathy

Cause if you have no expectations
You can never be
Disappointed in yourself
Or in anyone else

I'm not sorry for who I am
I'm not sorry for who I'll be
I'm not sorry for the Vicodin
I'm not sorry for the ecstasy
I'm not sorry at all
I hope that you understand
Cause I am just a fuckin' empty man
I live my life in altruistic nonsense
And find what makes me feel happiness
And I will
Live with it no matter what anyone thinks of me

Cause I'm just a praxis of a personality
In a flesh suit that is slowly rotting
Wilted memories that you don't take to the other side
If there's one

But I learned the secret
I learned the key
So I'm never disappointed in me
Because if you don't have
Any expectations at all
Then you won't cry when you fuckin' fall
Cause you didn't expect it
But you didn't write it out
Hmmm hm hm

I am who I am and I
Will never apologize
For droppin' LSD
In both my eyes
I've got a past as dark as the attic with no light
And I won't run from it, I won't try to hide
Cause at the end of the day we're not what we are inside
We're just worm food and bird food and nothing but a life
That turns to compost