[Lyric] Thinking Always Thinking (Blood Girl)

Dont want bandaids or the pills
Just an all-inclusive cure
Something i can eat for breakfast
That will make me always sure

Not doubting everything
About everyone
About something dumb that i should've done
Maybe thinking less is the cure i want
But its always all that i have become

Thinking, always thinking
Wished for a switch-off button to my brain
Wished for hypnosis
Wished for death
Always wished more or less

But all i am is what i am not
Never happy or good enough
I want the good things
The things i cannot have
What the sickness chose that i should never gеt
Fuck this brain
Fuck fuckworld but i live here
In this prison of tеrminal illness nightmare
Oh im a cliché of myself
But i keep on writing whether you want me to or not
Cus its the only thing that i've got
Its the only thing that i've got

Will you take what i give even if its pure toxic?
I promised to be better while i kept on cutting
And i kept on isolating myself even tho i knew it hurt you
And i see my mother in the mirror and it fucks me up

Cus im not what i want or what anyone wants
Cus im not what i want or what anyone wants
Im not what i want or what anyone wants